the becoming of a woman

wet saturday

2010-10-30T19:05:00.002+08:00

*wiping cobwebs from my blog*

My my my... hasn’t time simply flown by.... I have been so busy with my baby boy and my new little girl... yes yes I have given birth and am now a proud mummy of 2 wonderful children... the prince and princess of my heart... I gave birth in September and now my princess is 1 month plus... the sleepless nights, colic cries are call coming back to me... I have yet to sleep 4 hours in a row... even as I am typing now, I can hear her grunting... hoping to complete this blog entry before she wakes up... hahahahaha... since April this year, I have been guiding non – stop till august... it was fun but major tiring.... I had guide friends have been accommodating and helped me a lot due to my big belly... some guests have been very nice and some also were quite shocked at me working with my huge belly...

Celebrated my little baby becoming a toddler at home... decided to throw a grand function when my second baby was born... time really flies when one has a baby... my little prince has went through so many changes and watching him go through such changes has been a delight.... I still remember he was a wee little thing when I brought him back... now he is a little angel who steals people’s hearts just by smiling... my heart just swells up when I think about all the changes and see his pictures... now I can’t wait for my princess to grow with similar memories....

Am still house hunting... We have found some apartments recently and with the market sizzling down... we might have our apartment pretty soon...

Will be celebrating my son’s first birthday and my daughter’s naming ceremony next month after Diwali... been busy with all the preparations plus Diwali is gonna be huge with 2 children... next year I would celebrating Diwali in my own house... hard to believe but true... I get excited whenever I think about it...

Ok ok me gotta go... before I forget I am going for the Night Safari Halloween dinner tomorrow with hubby and friends... am really looking forward to it...now I need to sort my son’s clothes... he has outgrown so many clothes so gonna arrange his cupboard...

Happy Halloween all....

2010-04-08T16:49:00.000+08:00

Hello it’s been sometime since I have blogged....I’ve just been so busy and feeling sick... nausea has hit me pretty bad... it’s worse for my second pregnancy... plus I have started to do full time guiding... it gives me the exercise that I need but it can also be very taxing... especially my sentosa excursions... other than that I have no complains... am still looking for a place to stay... Tubby Hubby and I can’t agree on the same location... with the property prices sky rocketing, we are still thinking whether we should go private or not...

Anyhoo... I went to Mauritius last month and that was a fantastic place... the sun, the sea, the sand and the hotels... Mother, Tubby Hubby, Baby and I had a whale of a time... but we all came back tanned... the seafood was delicious... the people were beautiful... both inside and out... the greenery... OMFG!!!! Varieties of green were all around.... sugarcane plantations everywhere... we went up to a dormant volcano and when we looked down, I felt as thought I was looking at a scene of Jurassic Park... it was mind blowing.... the sea was so blue!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Just like the Hindi movies...

Baby was a good boy too... he didn’t scream on the flights.... he was a darling.... everyone wanted to carry him... however he hates to wear hats, or anything that covers his head... don’t know where he gets his stubbornness and anger from... must be from the father’s side of the family... he loved swimming...

Anyhoo I have posted the pictures up Facebook... go and see my cheeky boy... hee hee hee...

Many people have asked me about my second pregnancy... many feel that I got pregnant too fast... I say I don’t share the same views.... I think that my second pregnancy has come at the right time... look at the bigger picture... when my kids grow older; their age difference would be a year... with the competitive education system in Singapore, I can manage my children’s studies more efficiently...

This Friday would be my scan date... I’m hoping for a girl with Tubby Hubby is hoping for a boy...we shall see...

Update on baby’s birthday: Amutha is helping me with the cake... still looking for photographer, DJ and am contemplating on whether I should have door gifts or not....

haiz... so many things to and so little time.... well I gotta go now... gonna have a shower.... wanna meet Tubby Hubby in central for a walk....

Toodles for now...

2010-02-09T14:49:00.000+08:00

I made a frightening discovery yesterday… I have crossed over to the other side…
Before anyone starts to suspect anything, I am still sane…
Yesterday I brought my baby for check up ALONE… Hubby couldn’t get time off…
Baby, of all days had to be difficult…
I decided to go for a nice lunch @ Delifrance…
After settling down… baby suddenly decided to test the power of his lungs… he started to scream and wail at different levels… he was sleepy but he wasn’t gonna go to sleep quietly…
Everyone was looking at me… some understood while a couple started tsk-ing away…
I was so tempted to go up to the couple and tell them that I was from their side…
YES EVERYONE, I HAVE CROSSED OVER TO THE “MOTHERS WHO CAN’T SEEM TO HANDLE THEIR SCREAMING BELOVED OFFSPRING”
I was once tsk-ing away whenever I saw brats screaming their lungs out in the open… I would feign a headache and stare at the parents…
Karma came and bit me in the ass… *dramatic sigh*
I am now with a bratty 6 month old baby who loves to test his voice especially in public…
Apparently, the louder the surroundings, the louder his voice echoes…
No matter how mischievous he can get, his smile just melts my hearts…
His cheekiness and antics just make my day…
He is everything to me and I don't wanna change anything about him…
The joys and of being a mother is …
I can’t seem to describe it well enough…

2009-11-30T12:11:00.001+08:00

My my… hasn’t time just whizzed by… it’s been nearing 6 months since I last blogged… times have changed… I’ve given birth to a healthy bouncing baby boy in July… he’s been the centre of my world for the past few months… other than Tubby Hubby and my beloved first son ROMEO…
I have my little family and I love every minute of it…
Watching my little boy grow, watching his progress gives me great pleasure… it’s a huge lump in my throat that neva goes down… his gurgles and trying to sing along whenever me or TB are singing is just adorable…
He is my pride and joy and I strive to give him the best that I can… I feel complete as woman and as a person in whole… I would never change anything in my life…
There have been loads of ups and downs in my life and they have made me stronger… I grew from an immature brat to a responsible mother to my little baby… it’s a journey like no other… everything I read or heard is thrown out of the window as my baby defies all logic… come to think of it he’s like me… a fighter to the end…
I have started to appreciate my parents a lot more now… especially my mom… she has gone through so much with us… she’s the pillar of my strength… she’s been helping me out emotionally with all this over whelming baby knowledge…
On a another note, some people are low life scums… you know who you are… apparently the saying “live & let live” is lost on you… it saddens me when I learn that in this age and time you resort to underhand methods… you are a young & educated person and yet you choose the cowardly and underhand method to fight me… it’s not my fault if you fail to understand the concept of “love”…
As a woman, one should be compassionate & loving… there’s a reason why only women give birth and are called “Mother”… apparently all is lost on you…
No matter how much harm you may cause me and my family, I pray one day your eyes will be open and you can see the world clearly...
I believe there is a God… He is watching everyone & everything…
I will not succumb to whatever you have done and give up… My mama taught me better than that…
I will fight you and whatever you wanna say or do… my family ties are stronger than you think… we don't break down & crumble that easily…
I know you are reading a blog and are always on a look out for a defamatory note against you…
Well I am not gonna give you that satisfaction…
PHEW!!!!
Now that I have got that out of my system, I wanna wish everyone happy holidays!!!! The decorations down at Orchard Road looks great… can’t wait to bring my young one down…

TATA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-06-11T17:59:00.000+08:00

Dear baby,
This is your mommy here. I have been meaning to write this letter for a long time but never got down to it. You were a shock when you came into my life… I thought I wanted to enjoy my new life… I was at a dilemma whether to keep you or not… I’m glad I did…

The first trimester was a killer… our doctor was horrible and we were confused of what to do… we finally found a gem of a doctor and you made me a permanent resident in KKH…

Your daddy was always there tapping my back consoling me whenever I’m slumped over the toilet bowl… he was always reassuring me that I looked beautiful even while I was puking my guts out…

As I progressed further into the pregnancy, the violent bouts of nausea were replaced by mad dashes to the toilet… apparently you had found my bladder and squeezing as when you ever fancied…

You gave me weird mood swings and weird food cravings… you never fail to make me realize that you are a growing inside of me…

I will never forget the day I felt you move for the first time… your daddy, your granny as well as myself all gathered around my tummy to feel it again…

When it was time to find out your sex, we were simply awed by seeing you on the screen… seeing you squirm darting away from the thing that was prodding your sacred place… your irritation was sensed as I vomited once I came out of the screening room…

You travelled to Bangkok in my tummy… everyone had a good time touching you… your daddy went crazy buying you clothes… looking the best for his little one…

Your daddy and I love watching every move that you make in me… Romeo loves lying near you as to tell you that he is waiting as well… we all can’t wait for you to be out and in our arms…

We are counting down to the days when you would make your grand appearance into the world…

Rearranging our lives and our room to accommodate the little one… your little bed has been bought and arranged… your coming home clothes has been packed…

50 more days to go!!!!!

As I sit here and type this I can feel your somersaults and kicks in me… as if to tell me that you are anxiously waiting as well…

Till we meet…

Your mommy….

2009-05-14T15:44:00.002+08:00

Hello,
I’ve been really busy… busy slacking…. hahahahahaha…. Been meaning to blog but too lazy…. Am now in my seventh month… feel like the “Marshmallow Man” from Ghostbusters… (Don’t know anyone remembers him)… feel so big and clumsy… Baby has been super active… especially when he hears his daddy’s voice… life has been perfect… sometimes I worry it’s too perfect… someone might jinx it…

I have a loving home, a loving hubby and my special child… I can’t believe I’m going to celebrate my birthday for the last time as a couple… this time next year, I would be having my baby in arms trying to wish me “Happy Birthday”… ok I know I’m exaggerating but I'm allowed to… been feeling pretty emotional… really looking forward to the baby’s arrival… I can’t believe that in a few months I would carry my bundle of joy… *super excited*….

Right now, I am especially looking forward to my birthday treat to Bangkok… I would be leaving this Friday and will be back mid next week…. Don’t miss me people!!!!!! Tubby Hubby and Mommy are going with me so I will be in safe hands…. I can hear some people heaving a sigh of relief… I will be in safe hands and doctor has certified me safe to travel… I am gonna shop till I drop for my precious bundle of joy…and also for myself… Tubby Hubby is going to be my personal trainer… hahahahaha… he is going to work me back into shape… I can’t wait…

I am super bored in office… I have some work to do but am super lazy… think I will work on it when I'm back from my holiday…
For those who know me and my OCD-ish behavior, you must be thinking that I have got my stuff all packed up… I am sad to inform you that I found the tickets and my passport last night… hahahaha… I have yet to decide on which bag I wanna bring to BKK…

I will buy everyone what they have requested for… don’t worry… I have an amazing 120kg baggage allowance… hahahaha…
I heard its rainy there so am pretty worried… hope the days that I would be there won’t be rainy… I’ve got 2 tours during the weekend… I so wanna go… so pls God, if you are reading this… pls don't let it rain…. It can rain during the evening or night time but not the daytime… thanks in advance…

okok… gonna check on my facebook applications… see ya….

long long long long time

2009-03-24T14:11:00.000+08:00

Been reading through my blog and realized that I’ve not blogged about anything interesting… all I have there are random quizzes and an advert for the tau - geh (bean sprout husks) pillows…

Been having one of that writer’s block… or in other words been super lazy!!!!!!! Too busy facebook-ing, watching T.V. (FYI: I am a true couch potato; I pledge allegiance to fulfill my duties as a T.V. addict)

I kinda hate to leave the house now… I find comfort staying indoors with my trusty T.V. and my couch…. I’d play with my 2 dogs and watch T.V.

Life’s great…

Now, I’m not gonna blog all about my couch potato ways… there more to this blog…

I wanna blog about the Comedy Night I went to with Suresh… I had a blast… the company was awesome and the jokes were great… it felt good going out with my huge ass tummy… yes yes a guy actually went out with me and he is NOT Tubby Hubby… I survived and so did he… surprise surprise….

I AM NOT THAT FRIGHTENING TO GO OUT WITH…

Kinda miss going out with him… he was one guy with whom I could talk about anything and everything under the sun… but every time SOMEONE gets attached, he conveniently forgets me…. *boo hoo hoo*

Been doing some baby shopping with Tubby Hubby… got our baby cot at a steal… went for the Motherhood Exhibition last month and managed to snag myself a 1 year subscription of the “Mother and Baby” magazine as well as a baby cot… still looking for the perfect stroller though… have been looking around and can’t seem to find the right one… it’s either too expensive or too small… I need something big and sturdy… I remember going into 1 shop in AMK Hub… I found the perfect stroller… but the price was about $800.00 bucks… I had half the mind to tell her that I was asking for the cost of the stroller and not the down payment for a car… Tubby Hubby had to half drag me out of the shop before I could open my mouth… I bet there are loads of shop assistants who just wish I would drop dead… all I can say is that too bad “Too bad… Shit Happens”…

On another note, I just wish some people would just bug off from my life (note: I’m being very mild here…) I’m living my life the way I want to… you were given a chance to be part of it but you chose to move away so don’t come around acting all concerned… just cut the act and leave me alone… you don’t see me going all busybody-ish…

Phew… got that off my chest…

I got to go now… me wanna watch the Nanny….

Tata…

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2009-03-18T07:33:00.000+08:00

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bored!!!!!! :p

2009-03-11T10:44:00.000+08:00

001. Real name → ANITA DEVI...
002. Nickname(s)→ ANANYA, ANA, PRINCESS, BABY...
003. Family name→ DEVI...
004. Zodiac sign → TAURUS...
005. Male or female → FEMALE...
006. Elementary → LIVING WATER...
007. Middle School → KUO CHUAN PRIMARY...
008. High School-> KUO CHUAN SECONDARY...
010. Hair color → DARK BROWN...
011. Long or short → LONG...
012. Loud or Quiet → LOUD...
013. Sweats or Jeans → JEANS...
014. Phone or Camera → CAMERA PHONE...
015. Health freak → NO!!!!!
016. Drink or Smoke? → USED TO...
017. Do you have a crush on someone → YUP...
018. Eat or Drink → BOTH...
019. Piercings → EARS; NOSE...
020. Tattoos → NONE...

FIRSTS:
023. First piercing → 5 YEARS OLD...
024. First best friend → PANG YU LING...
025. First award → DANCING COMPETION...
026. First crush →12 YRS...
027. First pet → FISHY...
030. First big birthday → IN PRE-SCHOOL...

CURRENTLY:
049. Eating → NOTHING...
050. Drinking → WATER...

052. I'm about to → EAT MY MEDICINE AND VITAMINS...

053. Listening to → A LOMANTIC SONG FROM YUVRAJ...

054. Plans for today → MEETING SUPERMAN TONIGHT...

055. Waiting for → THE DAY TO END...

YOUR FUTURE:
058. Want kids? → GONNA HAVE 1SOON...
059. Want to get married? → AM OREADI MARRIED...
060. Careers in mind → OWNING A BABY BOUTIQUE...

WHICH IS BETTER?
068. Lips or eyes → EYES...
070. Shorter or taller? → TALLER!!!!!
072. Romantic or spontaneous → SPONTANEOUSLY ROMANTIC....

073. Nice stomach or nice arms → ARMS...
074. Sensitive or loud → DEPENDS ON THE SITUATION...
075. Hook-up or relationship → RELATIONSHIP...
076. Trouble maker or hesitant → HESITANT...
HAVE YOU EVER:
080. Lost glasses/contacts → YUP...
081. Ran away from home --- NOPE...
082. Held a gun/knife for self defense → NOPE...
083. Killed somebody → WTF?!?!?!? NOPE...
084. Broken someone's heart → I THINK SO...
085. Been arrested → NO...
087. Cried when someone died → Yes!!!!!!

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
089. Yourself → YES...

090. Miracles → YES...
091. Love at first sight → NOPE...
092. Heaven → YES...

093. Santa Claus → YES...
094. Sex on the first date→ NO WAY!!!!!
095. Kiss on the first date → ON THE CHEEK.... DEPENDING ON THE GUY’S BEHAVIOR THROUGHOUT THE DATE...

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now → YES...
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life → YES...
100. Post as 100 truths and tag 20 people→ HAHAHAHAHA....

pissed off

2009-02-25T09:54:00.000+08:00

HELLO ALL,

I AM TYPING IN CAPS COZ I’M PRETTY PISSED OFF…. I HATE PEOPLE WHO TRY TO INTERFERE IN MY LIFE…. WHY THE HELL DOES ONE CARE WHETHER I’M MARRIED OR NOT????? WHY THE HELL DOES ONE CARE WHETHER MY CHILD HAS A FATHER OR NOT???? SO WHAT IF I LIKE TO BLOG MY FEELINGS THAT DOES NOT MEAN I LIKE TO SHARE EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENS IN MY PERSONAL LIFE…

SO PLS DO YOURSELF A FAVOR AND SCREW OFF… MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS FOR ONCE IN YOUR LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

bleh-ified

2009-02-03T11:01:00.000+08:00

Rules:
Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you (or I think you'll come up with really entertaining things).

1. I am a simple girl with simple needs…

2. I prefer a simple quiet home-cooked meal with my loved ones…

3. I love my doggies as though they were my children…

4. I am secretly married to Anil Kapoor and Govinda in my 2 SEPARATE fantasy worlds… *DON’T LAUGH!!!!!!*

5. I love my mummy and daddy a lot, even though we tend to disagree at times… 1 love my 2 brothers to bits!!!!!! In short, I love my family to bits…

6. I love TB (Tubby Hubby) *even though I don’t tell him enough*…

7. I don’t wanna work and wanna stay home to be a stay-home mom…

8. I would sacrifice my time and all for my close ones…

9. I love my Hindi dramas… *even TB gets rejected* Golden Rule: Talk during advertisements…

10. I am a sucker for Chinese dramas… *I even watch the repeat telecasts*

11. I hate durians…

12. I love to watch Disney Channel… *I can hear Veron laughing*

13. I love spontaneity and surprises…

14. I smile whenever I think about Sentosa… (TB gave me a wonderful surprise by whisking me off to the beach for a nice romantic moonlight BK dinner with a bottle of lovely red wine and there were fireworks*literally* )

15. I’ve always wanted to have twins…

16. I am a couch potato…

17. I sleep with my doggies on my bed…

18. I am super vain…

19. I don’t follow fashion…

20. I am my destiny…

21. I hate it when people nag…

22. I love to read…

23. I love to play board games…

24. I enjoy going to Toys ‘R’ Us… *now I have an excuse*

25. I wanna runaway to a faraway island and start a small restaurant by the sea…

Am gonna tag in Facebook… I guess you know how bored I am right now…

boring

2009-02-03T10:17:00.000+08:00

Hey hey,

Had an awful night plus a bad morning…. Mom came home from a wedding dinner claiming her left hand was cramping up… my brother and I got my mother to change and we rushed her to the hospital with Tubby Hubby (TB)… we stayed there till 2 plus and once the doctor gave us the assurance she is ok, we brought her home… went to sleep around 3 plus and got rudely awakened by the idiotic lion dancers… every morning they make so much bloody noise… worse than barbarians… plus I didn’t get to sleep much last night… TB and Romeo were snoring so loudly… had to stuff my ears to sleep properly… Haiz…

Got up late and rushed to take a cab… guess the cab driver was in a bigger hurry than me or he is just getting ready to the F1… he did a huge-ass swerve in one of the small lanes and the cab tire burst… damn luck… had to look for another cab… came to work damn late… had something to eat but apparently the baby didn’t like what I ate and decided that I should puke everything out…

Damn!!!! It’s really not my day… I so wanna go home and crash… thank God, I’ve got a maid for my place to take care of my family and house… time is ticking by so slowly… Plus the damn PA system in my building is playing songs from the 80s'... not that i don't like it but it's the same 15 songs from 9am - 6pm... I am so gonna go crazy...

TB has gone away for 2 days which means I’ve got days of freedom… no one to nag at me… *yahoo!!!!!!*

Been reading up about my pregnancy and am fascinated with the way the baby is growing… it felt like yesterday when I found out I was expecting… and now it’s been 14 weeks… time really flies…

Ok me gtg… TB calling me… *wonders who’s the sensitive one in the relationship* hahahahahaha…..

irritation....

2009-01-19T11:45:00.000+08:00

I’m amazed at the audacity of some people… they act all sweet and nice but all they really are $@&@%@$ BACK STABBERS… how dumb can you think I am? Just because I have my blond moments; that does not give you the right to walk all over me or to judge me…

Yes, you have guessed it, I am pissed… pissed at some people who think they know everything… pissed at some people who think they know what they are doing but have no farking clue…

As for all those who want to know who my hubby is, please meet me to find out… he does not wanna be publicized on my blog or anywhere else and I respect his privacy as he does with mine… I don’t need to publicize our love declaration for the whole world… our wedding was an intimate affair and I intend to leave it at that… my blog, friendster and facebook accounts are mine not ours… so only my stuff will go up…for all those who think otherwise, you people can go and fly a kite during a thunderstorm…

Friends who start to change when they find out that stuff didn’t go the way they wanted to can also join the idiots and fly a kite during a thunderstorm…

Friends are supposed to be there for each other and give support… not bad – mouth when the situation suits you…

If you have anything to say about me, I would think you would say it in my face and not to go round the bush… if you don’t have the guts to face up to what you say, don’t open your gap… if you don’t say anything, no one will ever think you are dumb…

So please bugger off from my life before I zap you with Baygon….

lovey-dovey

2009-01-09T08:17:00.000+08:00

Hello all,

First and foremost I would to wish everyone a very Happy New Year!!!! There are so many things happening… first of all I was hospitalized shortly after Xmas… I over-worked… got scolded by a host of people… I feel so loved!!!!!!

YES I PROMISE NOT TO EXERT MYSELF… I WILL WORK BUT NOT PUSH MYSELF TOO HARD…

Other than that been busy trying to pack my stuff to move to hubby’s place…

si beh tiring… been procrastinating… hahahahaha… might be doing it on Saturday after my check up…

Bringing my baby over to hubby’s place to get adjusted to the new environment… his birthday is coming…. He is going to turn 1 year old… so excited… still remember him being brought into this world… he was so tiny… now he is a big lump of naughty… cannot imagine my life without him… gonna get his a birthday cake to celebrate…

I thank God I found the right man on this long road of life… I don’t tell him how much I love him… it gets to his head… hahahaha… I know without him my life would not be this wonderful… through all the falls, I found the right guy to pick up and brush away my tears…

He has been there throughout my unreasonable demands… when I vomit, he is there tapping my back telling me it’s ok… when I started to expand, he looked at me and told me I was the most beautiful mother-to-be… when the hormones started to kick in and I would cry and get paranoid, he was there telling me how much he loves me and how happy I have made him…

Yes, I am in love… truly in love with man who stole my heart and thank god he never returned it back….

Toodles….

merry xmas and happy new year....

2008-12-24T06:57:00.000+08:00

Wishing one and all a smashing Xmas and a rocking New Year…

I would be working tonight as well as on Xmas Day… Duty calls… hopefully I would be able to have dinner with my loved ones tonight after my tour… I’m doing the Night Safari *gasps* on the eve of Xmas… Pls do pray for me!!!!

I feel more confident as I do more tours… Thank God for some of the senior guides who help me along the way as well… there is especially one guide to whom I will eternally grateful to… she has given me tips and well as forms to make my guiding experience breezy…

My first encounter was crazy but after speaking to her, my second guiding experience was fun… I was comfortable and felt that I had the crowd in control… needless to say, I was not tired at the end of the tour… in fact, I was raring to go for other tours…

Well, I got to go for now… take care people and have a good time during the holidays…

Toodles…

2008-12-19T16:49:00.000+08:00

I truly believe that one can vomit like in the movie Exorcist… I know I can… However names it morning sickness should be shot down… it should be nausea… all day, all night nausea!!!!!!
Don’t feel like blogging much… if I puke anymore my guts are gonna spills out…

Bleh!!!!

updates....

2008-12-18T07:47:00.000+08:00

Hello all,

I know everyone’s wondering where I have gone to… don’t worry…

I am still around… a lot’s been happening… first of all I would like to inform everyone… I GOT MARRIED!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yes yes… I know many people would kill me for not informing them but things were rushing by so fast and I lost my handphone so I am really sorry… apart from getting married, I am expecting my first bundle of joy!!!!!

Year 2008 has been an eventful year and I am looking forward to Year 2009 with my husband and baby…

Am experiencing my first trimester which sucks big time!!!!! I do not experience morning sickness… I experience 24- hour long sickness… I tend to vomit all the time… smells I used to enjoy now triggers my nausea…

Been looking around for a good and affordable gynae… am thinking of going to KKH… any suggestions???

My tour has been going great… been guiding quite often… gained more experience…

Life is pretty much shaping up for me right now… met Ras last night and as he said I have completed everything this year… from degree to getting married and having a child… wasted no time… hahahahahaha….

UNISA team has to meet up soon!!!!!!! i miss you guys!!!!

Well, that’s all for now… will be updating on my pregnancy… am super excited… so many people advising me so many things to do and not to do during my pregnancy…

Woo hoo!!!!!!

Toodles!!!!

super

2008-12-02T05:53:00.000+08:00

Last week, I went on to lead my own group… it was a horrible experience… thank God the other guides were pretty patient with me… I was super nervous… managed to pull through with one blunder…

Hopefully, my next assignment won’t be as traumatic as this… I have been going on orientation trips to familiarize the routes as well as the different activities done during each tour…

It has been tiring but worth it…

On a brighter note, there is a piece of good news that I wanna share with everyone… but the time is not right as of yet… it’s come as a wonderful surprise and during the right time…

Ok, I go to go…

Do take care and have a wonderful week ahead…

Toodles

happy friday

2008-11-28T06:15:00.000+08:00

Ello…. I am pretty excited today… I am officially gonna lead a group to the night safari… *yays*…

Am feeling pretty nervous but excited… hopefully the older guides will help me along the way… got the uniform all ironed out and will leaving office at about 5 so that I can be there on time… don’t know what I am going to say… gotta do my research and write the things I wanna talk about… gotta remember to bring pens as well as a notebook so that I can jot stuff down…

Anyhoo, I don’t think I can blog much… way too excited…

Enjoy your weekend people….

Toodles

tuesday blues....

2008-11-25T06:23:00.000+08:00

I have decided…. I am not going to enter into a relationship till I sort my life out… I hate being pressurized into anything and this is one of them… my priority is to get myself licenses sorted out before anything else…

I have been putting off my plan to leave the country as well… gotta get that sorted out as well… being in a relationship would mean I have to put in time and effort to meet and to chat… which is something I don’t have the time for…

I am too busy with guiding and with my job plus my dogs… I don’t think being in a relationship would be the best for me as this moment of time… I do love the idea of being in a relationship but I don’t have the time and energy for it…

I love my freedom and I don’t wanna have anyone over my head controlling my lifestyle or restricting me in any way… No, it is not about the clubbing or the pubbing... No it is not about me having friends placed as my top priority… why must everything I do has to about something/someone else??? Why can’t it ever be about me???

I need “me” time without anyone questioning me… I think I deserve it… it doesn’t matter who or what I choose to spend it with… I need time… what may seem to you to be a total time waste may mean something for me… as the saying goes, “ one man’s meat another man’s poison”… the same thing applies here…

Sure, I do envy those who are in a relationship right now… I am happy for them and their decisions; they have made the step after careful consideration…

I, on the other hand, am still unsure… being single means I am responsible for myself only and no one else… no one to report to, no one to answer to, to one to justify myself to… if I wanna do anything, it is to please myself only…

So from now on and for ever more, I declare myself married to myself and no one else… hahahahahaha….

Happy wedding day to me…

mumbo jumbo

2008-11-21T06:34:00.000+08:00

For all those who write my pissed off post yesterday, thanks for the concern… I am all better… just needed to vent out my frustration… I am all better now… coz it’s Friday!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Have recently come to a conclusion on how my brain works…

Monday – blues (brains in between LaLa Land [90%] and reality [10%])

Tuesday – blues and reality (brains in between LaLa Land [10%] and reality [90%])

Wednesday (midweek) – reality 100%

Thursday – brains in between LaLa Land [30%] and reality [70%]

Friday – brains in LaLa Land [100%]

Saturday & Sunday – mental switch off

So that means I technically work once a week… hahahahahaha…

Anyhoo, the year has gone by and we are in the second last month of 2008… the building I work in plays the same old carols over and over again which irritates the crap outta me… you can’t seem to escape from it… it is even heard in the toilet… which brings me to another point… how difficult is it for you women to sit and pee into the bowl… you do not have things to handle and yet you can’t aim… God knows all hell will break loose if you were given an apparatus to pee with…

No!!!! I am not talking about the toilet in my building… I am talking about the toilets in the zoo… I do realize the zoo is a dirty and smelly place but that doesn’t mean you should stink the toilet up as well... how different can you be from the animals?

I was there last weekend and boy was it smelly… the 4 legged animals I can understand but how can I justify the doings of the 2 legged animals… a simple gesture of flushing seemed to be difficult for their delicate hands… jeez…

I do wanna blog about that day and attached some pictures but certain someone has yet to send me the pictures… I wonder who???? *twirls hair*

Just wanna say the zoo and the night safari were really enjoyable but tiring… amusing in some instances… Guna knows why….

Okok… am gonna stop boring my readers…

Have a good weekend…

Toodles.....

ps. total random blogging…

pissy mode

2008-11-20T10:39:00.000+08:00

I am sometimes amazed by the audacity of some people… they claim to be something else but turn out to be something else… people who know me well enough are there to see what I have been through and what runs through my mind when I am faced with a similar situation… others just think that I have not learnt my lesson… either way, it doesn’t affect me in any way…

I am a strong woman who knows what I am doing and is answerable to myself and God…

So… to all those self – righteous pompous arses who snide what I do, I would like to tell them to shove their high and upright noses up where the sun doesn’t shine cause I don’t really give a rat’s ass of what you think is right and wrong…

Just the other day, I was having a discussion with my friend about the phrase “birds of a feather flock together”… Personally, in general, I think it’s a load of hog wash… before anyone says anything, I would like, for the record, to state “THIS IS MY BLOG AND I WILL OR DO ANYTHING THAT DAMN WELL PLEASES ME”…

So we were saying, going through my life’s experiences, I have changed from a sweet, demure, walk-all-over-me girl to step-on-me-and-you-will-die type… I know such a drastic change isn’t really good for a woman but circumstances have made me this way… I digress…

Coming back to people who think alike and them sticking together… I have gone through several groups and I have noticed that not one of them are close to be alike… a perfect example would be my ex – classmates from UNISA… we were 6 different people from 6 different walks of life and had 6 different personalities… we stuck together and became a “groupie” … we were never alike even after the end of the course… but yet till today we are always in touch via msn, facebook or blogs… so how does the phrase “birds of a feather flock together” come in place in this scenario… I have seen loads of people in my life… from gangsters to perpetual cheaters… I have seen their “groupies” and they are all as sick as they are…

HOWEVER, I know of some people who are in that group but are not like them… so how does the phrase “birds of a feather flock together” come in place… it’s very easy to judge someone but have you ever noticed anyone judging you???? To comment “After all that you have been through, you are still sticking to shit” is majorly easy but have u stopped to take a look at yourself… are you really doing fine and dandy *using nice words*… have u stopped and ask me why am I like this??? No!!!! Since you have not, then I would suggest you stuff your comments somewhere else…

I believe everyone is nice… I allow people to walk over me to a certain extent… push my button and there is hell to pay… so don’t go round assuming that I am stupid… if I were really stupid, I would still be in the shit – hole… I’m not right??? So don’t judge me… I cannot stand people who come round judging my life as though this were some kinda sick competition…

the bottom line is that I have been leading my life for the past 26 year of my life on my own and yes I have had my fair share of falls but that doesn’t mean I have not learnt my lesson… I know what I am doing and am not a 5-year-old kid… I am going to hit my 30s’ for crying out loud… so quit trying to baby me… I have always been stubborn… and I have always been the type where the more someone tells me not to do something without a valid reason, I would do it just to spite you… I have been living my life very well, thank you very much…

So why don’t you gather your stuff and vamoose outta my life ASAP!!!!!!!!!!!!

ps. super random blogging…

pss. am majorly pissed…

psss. damn!!!!! Am still @#$%^*&*&_)*^$^##_)_))$#@#^* pissed…..

tuesday

2008-11-11T11:11:00.000+08:00

Hello then…

I am back again with another list of the requirements I would like my prospective life partner to meet… I am a 26 year old girl who has not been in a relationship for a long time… I would suggest all prospective mates to view this list and MEMORIZE it…

1. Thou shall not control me. I am a grown adult and can make my own decisions. DO NOT impose your ideals onto me….

2. Thou shall not nag. If I needed a nagger, I would have stayed with my mom. She does an excellent job. (FYI: harping on a certain issue too many times is nagging.)

3. Thou shall not force me to what they would like me to do. I would you rather let me decide what I wanna do. Thank you very much.

4. Thou shall talk and let me talk!!!!

5. Thou shall not stifle me. I need my space to breathe. Just because I am in a relationship, that doesn’t mean my social life expires.

6. Thou shall not talk down to me. (brings back to rule no 1: I am so small kid!!!)

7. Thou shall not “baby” me. (believe or not; there is a difference between “baby-ing” and pampering)

8. Thou shall not repeat a word too many times… i.e. okokok… (those who are guilty, do cringe in shame)

9. Thou shall not deny me a good argument… I am no bimbo…

10. Thou shall read this and memorize it… I do not wanna have to repeat myself…

It’s only 4 p.m. I am super bored….

Updates on the job hunting: Still nothing… let’s see in time to come… I so need to move out of this place… coming to work is kinda dreadful… don’t get me wrong… working in the travel industry is fun but working for family is stupidly impossible, especially when the said family member behaves like a child… am training the new gal who knows nuts and has super bad breath….

Still got 2 hours to go… I have been on facebook way too often… playing with my pet and random word games… hahahahaha…

Okok me gtg

Wanna race my pet…

Ciao

updates!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-11-08T14:45:00.002+08:00

Hello,
I have disappeared for a long time.... have been very busy with work and exams... got a few updates before I start ranting and raving....
1. I have been really sick and am still very sick....
2. I have passed my guiding exams and am now the official tourist guide of Singapore....
3. I am still looking for a job....
Anyhoo, there was a case of a girl committing suicide near my place.... It's really sad and I feel for the family... but I think the girl did a stupid thing... By the looks of her friends and boyfriend, she must be in her 20s'... I don't know why she did such a thing...
Common reasons would be for committing suicide would be:
1. Boyfriend/husband problem
2. Money problem
3. Work problem
4. Family problem
Personally, I feel that if one should commit suicide based on the above mentioned reasons, then they must have been living a worthless life...
I have limited amount of friends and these friends have known what I have gone through... but somehow the thought of suicide has never came across in my mind... no matter how shitty things can be...
I think that God has put us here (Earth) for a reason... and we meet people for a reason... some change our lives drastically and some have little impact in our life, no matter who or what walks in our lives, we should be able to face the good times and bad times...
Who are we to end our lives when we never created ourselves... These people who commit suicide, I wonder if they have thought what would happen to their family members when they are gone... I think they are doing the most selfish thing...
My friends have committed suicide and I have seen the way their families cry over their bodies regretting why they have said or done the things they shouldn't have in the first place...
Parents are the ones who bring us into their lives... they mould us into the person they want us to be... in some instances, we turn out otherwise and yet they love us unconditionally... Yes, there are times when they say or do things that hurt us, but have we stopped to think how much hurt we are causing them when we don't turn out to be the way they have dreamed us to be? I know we have never asked to be born but our parents love us unconditionally so why can't we love them the same?
Friends are our support networks after our parents... You don't have the power to choose your parents but you have the power to choose your friends... Your friends should help you and not bring you down in life...
If you have problems, you should confide in friends who should in return give you good advice and not crappy advice...
For instance, if you have family problems, your friend should advise you to talk to your family members and not run away from home...
I have a small group of friends whom I trust and share my problems with...
Boyfriend/husband, they are supposedly our life partners and best friends... but somehow we choose the wrong people to be with... it hurts when the person whom you think/thought is going to be out life partner disappoints you... but that doesn't give you the reason to commit suicide....
We, as women, got to show men that we are their equivalent and not beneath them...
Work and money problems come hand in hand... the magic rule applies "DON'T
SPEND MORE THAN YOU EARN!!!!!!!!"
Then you won't have problems
I do feel for the girl that committed suicide but I still think that there could have been many other ways to solve your problems...
For all those out there reading this and are contemplating to do this cowardice act, do think about the consequences....
I am sure that you don't wanna be scrapped off the pavement with your hands handcuffed????
Do try and speak to friends or call in help lines to talk to random strangers...
Sometimes it is easier to talk to a stranger and not worry about being judged.... trust me...
Alternatively, you can talk to me.... I am the in-your-face crude counselor that would help you see it through.... hahahaha....
Ciao

wet friday

2008-10-24T09:37:00.000+08:00

There are some things in life that irks me the most… Since Diwali is coming and I want to do a list of things that people do it irritate the life out of me…

THE HATE LIST

1. I hate it when someone vents their anger on me. If I am asking you a question and for some weird reason, you are in the blackest clouds, IGNORE me!!!!!!!!!!!!! Don’t give me sarcastic answers, especially early in the morning.

2. I hate it when someone asks me to give up my dogs. I take care of their expenses and needs, not anyone else. So shove your comments up where the sun doesn’t shine.

3. I hate it when I have to report to someone my every activity. I don’t report to anyone. When I say I am out, don’t ask me the 5Ws’ and 1H. I tell you I am out and who I am with and what time I would be back. No further questions are required after the sentence, “I am out with ABC at XX place and would be at XX time.”

4. I hate it when people don’t LISTEN and interrupt me. If you do and misinterpret what I have said, then too bad! Shit happens!!!!!

5. I hate it when I am forced to listen to even though I have just said, “I am angry and I don’t wanna listen.”

6. I hate it when people try to take control of my life. It’s my life and I know how to run it. I was running it well till you showed up so what’s the problem????

7. I hate it when I am looked upon as a 6 year old child, who can’t decide which candy she wants. I am 26-fucking-years old. I will damn well do want I want and whenever I want. If you have a problem, TOO BAD!!!!!!!!!!!!

8. I hate it when people read my random notes and think it’s all about them and insist it’s all about them. HELLO!!!!! My world doesn’t revolve around you. Just because I blog about something which you think is about doesn’t mean it has to be around you. Most of the stories are fictional unless stated otherwise.

9. I hate it when I am given credit for no apparent reason. If you have screwed up big time, giving me credit would not and cannot redeem your wrong-doing. If you fucked up big time; nothing you say or do can redeem it. So, no point putting me on a pedestal.

10. Don’t give me lame excuses for you insecurity. GET HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Phew!!!!!!!!!!!! I feel so much better after composing the list….

To all my Indian readers,

HAPPY DIWALI!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wishing You Peace, Prosperity and Happiness...

loving u!!!!!

2008-10-23T12:09:00.000+08:00

Hello people,

It’s a beautiful Thursday!!!!! It is officially the 4^th week since I have been going to the temple doing my 108 rounds. *yays*

I’m still looking for a job… not really a good time to be out looking for a job… damn the economic downturn… it’s so damn difficult to get a job… guess my nightmare of becoming a domestic engineer a.k.a housewife-cum-breeding machine is gonna come true….aaarrrrgggghhhh!!!!!!!!

Diwali’s round the corner… it’s really scary the way the year’s just zooming by… so many things are happening so fast… this year’s coming to an end!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So many things to so, so many things to buy… don’t know where to start first… I’m so going to damn expo, no matter how sticky and smelly it will be!!!! Need to buy cookies and deco… gonna rush it all on the last day… might be meeting Guna and her hubby… I will be there with Mohan… emotionally blackmailed him to follow me…. *evil laughter*

Last night, I watched “Nights in Rothanthe”. Richard Gere and Diane Lane were so good… the on-screen chemistry was superb… I don’t care what others say… Richard Gere is hot!!!!!! He can rock my boat any day… I CRIED during the movie… *don’t die of shock!*

The whirlwind romance, the storm and the simple pleasure of having someone hold you…. *sigh*

All chicas should catch this movie…. Do watch it with your loved ones but don’t come out yelling, “Why can’t you be like him ah?”

It’s irritating… If everyone ends up like Richard Gere, the world would be flat!!!!

I love watching going to the theatres to watch movies. The smell of popcorn and the uber cold halls; it’s something that cannot be recreated. However, it irks me when some a**holes decided otherwise. Thus I have come up with a list.

10 things thou shan’t do in the theatre.

1. Thou shall not walk in the theatre when the movie has already started. It’s rude!!!!!!!!

2. Thou shall bring thy own jacket. If you forgot and can’t share with partner/friend, too bad. DIE in the freezing cold then.

3. Thou shall shut the F*ck up when the movie is going on. If you friend/partner has missed the previous scene, too bad shit happens! Move on!!! I didn’t pay 10 buck to hear you yak!

4. Thou shall not make out if thou aren’t in a dark corner. I wanna watch a movie not some damn “erotica gone wrong”

5. Thou shall not talk on the phone while the movie is going on. You are not stupid neither are you illiterate. How do you f*cking ignore all notices to silent your phone?

6. Once you hear the slurping sound in your cup, it means your drink has finished. So get the f*ck up and buy another drink or get it from your partner/friend. If you came alone, too bad shit happens. Next time, stop being a bloody miser and get yourself a large drink. If you have finished the large drink during the movie, please get yourself check, you camel.

7. When thou decides to have popcorn has a snack, thou shall chew QUIETLY. No one needs to know you are having popcorn.

8. When the girl turns you hand around her once, DON’T try again. It irritates people who are sitting behind and they think you are big time loser.

9. Thou shall not get up till the lights are on. If you do and trip, it’s your fault so stop whining about it.

10. Last and not least, when leaving the cinema thou shall watch out for the person behind and not slam the door.

I know this list make me sound mean but I am a very nice person. Just don’t try to irritate me.

Tata for now!!!! Xoxoxo!!!

Updates of me life

2008-10-13T11:48:00.000+08:00

Hello!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It’s been a long time since I have blogged…

Just some random updates:

1. I AM LOOKING FOR A JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2. I HAVE BEEN GOING TO THE TEMPLE EVERY WEEK!!!!!

3. I HAVE STOPPED SMOKING YET AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

4. I HAVE STARTED GOING TO THE GYM!!!!!!!!!!!!

5. I AM GONNA START TO SWIM!!!!!!!

Yes yes… I have decided to quit working where I am working now and to look for a new job that pays well and that has got nothing to do with FAMILY!!!!!!!!!!!!! After working so long, I have come to the conclusion that when one works with family, conflict arises thus shit hits the fan… So DUCK!!!!!

Anyhoo, I’ve been sending resumes and all… I know it’s a bad time looking for a job especially when the economy is so bad… but hey you never know…

YES!!!!!!!!!!! I have been going to temple weekly… doing 108 rounds every Thursday… got to do it for 9 weeks… its high time I start becoming holy which means I got to give my beef… well… I have done well for 2 weeks got another 7 more to go… I SHALL DO IT AND FINISH IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I have stopped smoking yet again and hope that I would pick it up… too expensive lah… decided to spend the cash on gym-ing as well as swimming… hopefully, I won’t pick the habit up again but then again it’s hard to say… we shall see…

I need to lose 25kg by Mar 2009!!!!!!!!! So I need to gym and swim more often… as it is, I am doing it once a week… Gym-ing I mean… I have not started swimming yet… must start soon… wanna look fabulous in time for my birthday… went to watch Eagle Eye last week with Guna… she’s great… had so much fun with her… Eagle Eye was superb… kept me at the edge of my seat... thank god there was no mushy romance that would have spoiled the climax of the movie…

I wanna watch the movie again!!!!!!!!!!!!! Anyone interested??????

AM so gonna go to Teka Expo on the last day!!!!!! *yay* practically begged Mohan to follow me!!!!! He agreed and told me that he would come if I wear to wear long sleeved loose fitting shirt and jeans… hahahaha… the last time we went together, I slapped an Indian worker coz he squeezed my butt… also managed to convince him to watch the latest Richard Gere movie with me…. Hahahahahahaha….

Anyhoo, I have bought 2 suits during the Geylang Expo… so no more Diwali shopping for me… might buy some cookies and all… we shall how things go…

This year would be Romeo’s 1^st diwali… a pity his mummy is not around… finally found the urn and managed to throw her ashes yesterday…. Big thank you to Mr. Luke who brought me to East Coast and helped me open the urn….gonna miss her… but in the words of Mr. Annamalai, “she is in doggie heaven, playing with her mummy and daddy”.

Thank you to one and all for the encouraging words during the difficult time… it meant a lot to me…

I guess I have pretty much summed up everything, no matter how random they are…

Ciao!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ramdom

2008-09-30T10:40:00.000+08:00

I was at the doctor’s office the other day and while browsing through an old magazine, the following question in the Aunt Agony column caught my eye. Thought I might share this with you….

Dear Irma,

I am a 26 year old girl and have been going out with Guy A for 6 months. We are great together and we love each other (I think, at least I know I love him). However, he has made it clear he doesn’t want to get married to me or to anyone at the moment. He claims to have the “gypsy” blood. I knew he was never going to commit to me and yet I chose to fall in love with him.

Recently, I met Guy B and found that we have many common interests. He is every girl’s knight in shining armor. He is sweet, loving; caring and a whole lot more. Unfortunately, I have been with too many rough nuts to appreciate him. He has fallen in love with me and has told me he wants to spend his life with me. I only know this guy for 2 months and he is professing his love to me. I think it’s ridiculous and a little too soon to make such a decision

I am torn between the 2 guys; one who can commit and one who will leave after a few months.

Any advice?

2 men and a lady

Unfortunately, my number got called up and I had to go into the consultation room. When I came out of the room, I wanted to read the advice given but the magazine had disappeared….

Damn old magazine stealer…. May your kids be born ass-less…

This however got me thinking… are there such situations? How confusing can a relationship be? If you like someone, you got to stick with that person… how can one change their taste in men that easily????

Hmmm….

If it were me advising, I would say:

Dear 2 men and a lady,

Make up your bloody mind!!!!!!!!!

We are talking about love here, not clothes. If you knew Guy A isn’t into commitment, why put yourself in that position in the first place? If you think Guy B is proposing too soon, then tell him off.

Maybe it’s time you look into yourself and ask yourself what you want in life.

It is fun being in a relationship but there are stresses as well. Do you want something stable or are you in just for the thrills of it?

You are 26, still young. You should be deciding which career path you would like to take.

Decide on what you want in life before you let other come in.

If anyone out there has read the article and know what advise was given, do give me a shout out….

To all my Muslim readers,

Selamat Hari Raya!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Maaf Zahir dan Batin…… *sorry if i got it wrong*

Ps. I’m off to Geylang Serai…. Gotta find good bargains…

Pss. It’s the first day of Navarathri and I feel like eating ‘tulang’….

Pss. I am sick and only 52 more days ;)

bare my soul

2008-09-26T09:35:00.000+08:00

It’s been only 2 months since we chatted on the net;

It’s been only a month since we met;

It’s been only 3 weeks since we kissed;

It’s been only 2 weeks since you said you love me;

It’s only been a week since I’ve given you a chance;

And now you are leaving…

So many things left unsaid…

So many different places left to go…

Thoughts run through my mind….

If I say anything, would it be too hasty….

If I don’t say it, would he know????

Now he is gone, I realized I should have said it all…

i hate myself for loving you

2008-09-23T11:24:00.000+08:00

The day has come…

I knew you were gonna leave…

I always told myself that I will not let it affect me…

You were supposed to be the “risk”…

That few months when you have been around, you have made me feel special and loved…

You helped me break out of my shell…

Whilst discovering myself, I started falling in love with you…

I knew we had no future together…

As my head screamed, my heart was going otherwise…

And now that you are leaving, I am watching you go…

My heart yells out to you to stay…

All I wanna do is run up to you and tell you not to go…

Ask you why you don’t feel the same…

Where have I done wrong…

I hate you for not loving me…

I hate you for leaving me and not turning back…

I hate you for you cannot commit…

There are so many reasons for me to hate you and to plunge a dagger through your heart…

But there is only ONE reason for me to stand here and wave good bye…

I LOVE YOU LIKE I NEVER HAVE…

Clarifications

2008-09-12T11:53:00.000+08:00

Hello,

Hope you like my short story… there should be more to come….

In the meantime, I have to emphasis

THIS IS NOT ABOUT ME!!!!!!

THIS IS A PRODUCT OF MY OVER ACTIVE IMAGINATION

Short Story

2008-09-12T11:49:00.001+08:00

Once upon a time, there lived a girl… she was an average looking girl… she came out into the world, seeking love… pure love… however all she got was abuse, torture and misery… she had decided to give up her search for the right guy when a young man came up to her and asked her for a light… conversation began… friendship developed…she was afraid to meet him though… on the day the young man returned home, they shared a kiss… a kiss like no other… she felt young and foolish again… her stomach curled in delight…she thought she had lost that feeling but it was revived by a strange man…

2 weeks passed and she had not heard from him… she wondered if he had forgotten about her… she then knew that kiss never meant the same for him… she closed the chapter of the dashing young foreign man…

Nearly a month has passed, she get a call… it’s HIM!!!!! The stomach curling comes back… though they don’t talk for long, she feels good… communication was getting stronger… from monthly calls to fortnightly calls to subsequently weekly calls… he told her, he would come back… she waited anxiously for the day he comes…

Finally after nearly six months of waiting, he comes back…. He surprises her by appearing at her office… that night, he comes to her home… her mom meets the guy she has been talking about… they get along fine…

She starts going out with him on a regular basis… every weekend, she rather spend her time with him than anywhere else… he treats her well and she enjoys the attention…

There came a time when she had started calling him her boyfriend… it started being natural for her… unknowingly, she started falling in love with him… this strange and foreign man… many have asked her about the future… she never had an answer…

Months has passed and they went for a trip together… there, they had a long talk about the future… they both realized they want different things… she wanted stability and he couldn’t provide that... she was at a loss… she was in this relationship too deep without realizing it… she decided to never broach on the topic ever again… she knew deep down inside, he would leave… and she would break…

Recently, her friend professed his love for her… he knows of the other guy but is willing to wait, even though he might not be with her…

Now, torn between 2 guys, she has no idea what to do…

Apparently, REALITY was not done with her yet… she found out she was pregnant with Stranger’s child…

On that same day, Stranger told her that he might leave earlier than expected… she knew he was supposed to leave and he was never happy here… however the day came sooner than expected…

Now she don’t know whether she should tell him about her pregnancy or not… she doesn’t want him to stay with her just because she is carrying his baby… neither does she want to raise the child alone…

Her friend wants to be there for her and wants to help her raise the child… she knows that is the wrong thing… he doesn’t have to take responsibility for anything…

She was confused from the start…and now things are just more complicated… what will she ever do????

suspense

2008-09-11T12:52:00.000+08:00

There’s silence before the storm hits…

that’s the situation going on in my office…Have no idea why and I don’t wanna find out either… betrayal is nasty… especially when it comes from your own family… thank god I’ve got people who love me… am in the mood to write… will do a short story soon…

Ta-ta for now….

gut feelings going hay wire....

2008-09-10T12:46:00.001+08:00

It's been quite some time now.... I have this gut feeling that something is gonna go wrong in this company.... well, my guiding examinations is approaching… I’m waiting for it to be over… this may come as a shocker to one and all but I have decided to quit working at the travel agency… I think that it’s time I move on to better prospects… It’s very sad L but I don’t have a choice… I believe in 1 philosophy…. “Either you change yourself to suit the environment or you change the environment to suit yourself”… I’ve tried both ways but unfortunately it’s not working… I’ve been looking for better prospects so if anyone has any job openings, do let me know!!!!!

I’m gonna be here till beginning of next year coz I gotta tie up loose ends…

The list is as follows:

1. Need to decide where I wanna go…

2. Gotta go for some interviews for jobs in that destination…

3. I have yet to complete by graduation project for MDIS…. Yes Veron, I have not completed it…

4. Maybe attend the UNISA graduation….

NO!!!!!!!!!! I am not getting married and migrating anywhere…. Sheesh!!!!! Way too many people asking that!!!! I stand firm on my ground of not getting married!!!!

Moving away from Singapore scares me… but I think this is the best… life here has become stifling and it’s time I move away from things that I don’t wanna get reminded off…

LALALALALALALA

2008-09-02T11:51:00.000+08:00

Life’s really strange… loads of stuff has been happening… feel as though everything’s in the fast lane…

Lemme sit down and write my blog…

pheewwww!!!!!!

Now,,,,,, where do I start…

1^st of all I would to give myself a huge pat on my back for passing the STB license exams… I know I’ve blogged about it before but I just wanna do it again…

COZ I CAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hahahahahahahahaha……

Well, 2 weeks back Luke shaved his head… he is now this big white guy with a bulb on his head… he wanted to shave his head due to the heat and I pushed him to the barber shop… it was really funny at first… but I guess I’m now used to it… Mom went off to Hong Kong and when she returned, she left for Bangkok with my brother… haiz… so lucky…

Luke does pamper me so… brought me out for a nice dinner… we went to H.V. for Spanish food and 2 bottles of wine… I drank the most coz he was driving… was kinda high… not that anyone was complaining…

I wanna travel too…..

Anyhoo, the week’s really been crazy with work and all… met some interesting people… they have made a presence in my life… not that I’m complaining… enjoying their company… just loving it…

Brought Luke to one the Kaho’s function last Saturday and boy was that embarrassing… everyone was staring at us… felt weird… Ramesh Jija and Uncle were nice to him… mom made him dance to UP wala and all... it was super funny… white guy dancing to the tunes only… dropped my mom home and we left…

Sunday was his company DnD… was kinda nervous… he told me that there were 800 odd people coming to the DnD… but there was more than that… It was held at the Orchid Country Club… He didn’t drive, which turned out to be a good thing after all… he was drunk… it was really funny… his colleagues, especially Michael, made sure I had a good time… I thought I would not talk much… however, everyone made sure I was never silent…

I was “blushing” most of the time… everyone was teasing me… and all I could do was hide either behind Luke and in the bathroom… I distinctly remember Michael saying, “Angmohs get the best pay and the best chicks!”

It was crazy…

I had to dance on stage…. It was majorly embarrassing… suddenly I was awarded Ms Ley Choon (I think that’s how to spell it) 2008… I don’t even work there… *SUPER EMBARASSING*

Luke was drunk… lucky thing we left the car home… he was oh so happy… it was nice seeing him really unwind… we had to call for a cab… he was mingling around with his boys enjoying himself…

That night ended magically for me… words I thought I would never hear were said… they say drunk men tell no lies…. Well, we shall see how things go…

Very soon, his gypsy blood will get the better of him and I’ll be waving goodbye from the other side of the road... funny how when you think everything is going good and yet you have the nagging feeling that something would go wrong…

It’s like you know what you want and you know what he wants and both are in the same boat when intentions are total opposite…

It’s like venturing out of your comfort zone into the twilight zone, knowing you are going to fall eventually but just don’t know when…

Confusing????

I know I m not…

Anyhoo, I gotta get back to work….

TATA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LALALALALALALA

2008-09-02T11:50:00.000+08:00

Life’s really strange… loads of stuff has been happening… feel as though everything’s in the fast lane…

Lemme sit down and write my blog…

pheewwww!!!!!!

Now,,,,,, where do I start…

1^st of all I would to give myself a huge pat on my back for passing the STB license exams… I know I’ve blogged about it before but I just wanna do it again…

COZ I CAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hahahahahahahahaha……

I wanna travel too…..

It was crazy…

I had to dance on stage…. It was majorly embarrassing… suddenly I was awarded Ms Ley Choon (I think that’s how to spell it) 2008… I don’t even work there… *SUPER EMBARASSING*

That night ended magically for me… words I thought I would never hear were said… they say drunk men tell no lies…. Well, we shall see how things go…

It’s like you know what you want and you know what he wants and both are in the same boat when intentions are total opposite…

It’s like venturing out of your comfort zone into the twilight zone, knowing you are going to fall eventually but just don’t know when…

Confusing????

I know I m not…

Anyhoo, I gotta get back to work….

TATA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-08-25T10:46:00.003+08:00

realized the 2 pictures from my previous blog has disappeared......

well, here it is....

i'm so happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-08-18T11:47:00.000+08:00

I’m so happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I passed my theory examinations!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Guiding license is now within reach!!!!!!!!!!!

This is so exciting!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I feel sad for those who didn’t make it though!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thank you Irene, for stopping me from leaving too early!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It was nuts…. It’s like you are supposed to study but don’t know what to look out for…

Anyhoo, I PASSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Gonna prep myself for the practical!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Too happy to write anything else!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tata

i'm back after so very long!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-08-13T12:36:00.005+08:00

I am back from a long holiday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The sand, the sea and the beach… it was simply lovely… I had a whale of a time… Evi helped me with the room reservations and the dinner as well as Luke’s birthday cake…
it was a work cum holiday thingy… weird but true…
I had such a good time… didn’t wanna come back at all… Luke and I needed a break… was kinda apprehensive… heard too many different things about the resort… some were good and some were bad… I didn’t know what to expect….
Anyhoo, the boat trip was about 1.5 hours long… bum died on me… hated the stupid woman beside me whining all the way… I was half tempted to turn around and throw her overboard … but nah… too lazy… and I was on a holiday which means I should not offend anyone…
Had a meaningful discussion with Luke… thinking of pimping him out… he wants to be a man-whore… hahahahahaha…
any takers???????????
got through the immigration checks… things are so damn bloody hectic… Luke obviously got through faster than me…
he had to get visa on arrival which had no bloody queue as compared to the one I had to go through… he waited for me at the end of the line… we then remember Indonesian police not liking the Australians… we were asked to moved somewhere else… he enjoyed the fact that he could smoke anywhere and everywhere… eventually we got into the small van in which he could hardly stretch his legs… reached the resort about 30 mins later…
It was the bomb… I was feeling tired due to the long journey… but once I reached the resort, I was amazed by the sights…felt fresh and awake too… the resort was magnificent... we had the VIP sea gull room… it was over-looking the sea and the pool… the food was good and the service was excellent… we met a few kite surfers and that was pretty much the highlight… the sport seems to be cool… the guys were awesome… welcoming us to their group… I lived like a queen for the last four days… went for a swim in the pool… met some nice Filipinas as well…
work meeting went better than expected… all I did there was eat, sleep, swim along the beach, drink, have massages… I was in the sun so much and now I’m black & fat!!!!!!!!!
Pictures are up… they are on my multiply site though…
http://ananyababe.multiply.com/photos/album/6/Bintan_Agro_
we never wanted to come back… enjoyed myself tremendously… I think it’s high time I should start venturing out from the little island… maybe go on backpacking trips to nearby countries like Vietnam, Thailand and so many more…
I’ve got 2 pictures for now… one of it was taken at Mad Jack restaurant, a new Aussie joint that had just opened in Paradiz… my bro conned me into buying him lunch!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

That evening as we were walking towards the train station, we saw the Pink Piggy, he was promoting the Hog’ Breath (I think that it the restaurant’s name)… remembered eating there once…food was good!!!!! There is a new joint opening up in Chijmes…
Anyway, I got to go now… need to work on a marketing strategy plan for the resort…
Till my next post…
Ps. Ver, I hope that you are happy with my blog now…
Pss. Can my fairy godfather grant me a job in a resort… hahahahahahaha…

nothing

2008-08-07T08:38:00.000+08:00

I’ve been contemplating to blog for a long time…

Thought of writing a short story but apparently I’ve got writer’s block… so have decided to randomly write about nothing…

So here goes nothing…

aaarrrrrgggghhhh

2008-08-06T09:26:00.000+08:00

Things get nasty when shit hits the fan!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

clarification

2008-08-05T08:51:00.000+08:00

Hi Hi,

Many have asked me about my previous blog entry… people are wondering if I’m attached or seeing someone…

Pls do not get alarmed… I am still single and am not looking for a relationship…

I love the idea of being in a relationship but I don’t think I’m mentally prepared as of yet…

I like my freedom and I don’t wanna trade it in…

I have yet so much to achieve in my life…

Still got to have the Businesswoman of the Year award, wanna get my tourist guide license, driving license and so much more…

So pls do not get your hopes up to high….

I AM SUPER SINGLE AND SO NOT READY TO MINGLE!!!!!!!!!!!!

it's THURSDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-07-31T11:27:00.002+08:00

Finally the end of the month is coming... work’s coming along ok, but a little on the quiet side… been able to blog more this week… hahahaha…

it’s all working out for me now… am loving every minute of my life… things are working out the way they should be… it seems as though nothing can go wrong now… just don’t wanna get too excited… don’t wanna jinx anything…

Been reading Chicken Soup for the Romantic Soul… I know, I know… its Oprah in a book… it’s romantic though… makes me believe in love and the essence of it all…

Twenty six years of my life and I’ve been chasing after love… I’ve always had the same image for the man that I wanna spend my life with… I wanted him to be the Prince Charming like all fairy tales… and my wedding to be the talk of the town… I wanted an ending to be “happily ever after”…

I realized that all in all I loved the idea of having the whirlwind romance… I never stopped to think about the aftereffects of it all… I chose men that swept me off my feet then swept me under their feet… yes we had good times but that doesn’t mean the black clouds should be ignored… things that were adorable and lovable soon seem to be unbearable… habits that I thought I could break turns out to be a characteristic trait… after some time I stop trying and I’m blamed for not trying to work things out…

After making all the mistakes, I finally found someone to teach me the right way… NO!!!!!!
We are not going on or anything like that… but when I’m with him, I learn so much… learnt how to live life and not be uptight over everything… learnt to let things go and enjoy the simple pleasures in life… life is not all about clubbing and enjoying… life can be a simple pleasure, like enjoying a nice quiet dinner, or kicking back to a nice movie in the comforts of your own home… he has made me realize that friends don’t make me the person that I am… I have the freedom to choose who I want to be friends with…

I treasure every one of my friends and would lay my life for them… I wouldn’t want a group of fakers to be around me… my small and intimate group of friends is good enough for me...
Anyhoo, I know that I don’t want some grand and fancy wedding… all I want is the guy to tell me that he loves me and I know that I will his forever… no fancy church or dress can replace the feeling…

Ps. Veron, Deb, & Ling, no matter where and when I get proposed, I WILL call you!!!!!
Pss. No matter which part of the world I intend to get married, you three will be the bridesmaids…
Psss. I love everyone in my life that has seen me go through life and are there for me all the time….
HUGGIES & KISSES to all….

it's fricking tuesday!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-07-29T12:51:00.000+08:00

I’ve decided that there are four types of people in the world…

1. Intelligent People (which includes mua)

2. Stupid People

3. Idiot People

4. Spastic People

Intelligent people, like me, know what to do and when to do stuff…

Stupid people, do the right stuff, wrong time…

Idiot people do wrong stuff, right time…

Spastic people are those who do everything wrong and nothing right…

Sometimes, one wishes that such people would disappear from the face of the earth however when we, intelligent people, think about it, these people help us stay sane and normal or else all of us would have turn out to be geeks…

I swear some people just do stuff on purpose and to gain attention… I worry about them… craving for attention and all… I bet their childhood was pretty lonely… no one to pay attention to them so they grow to be random attention seekers… no matter how irritating they got, I would be never wish them dead…

YOU KNOW WHY?????????????

They are my source of entertainment………..

Melbourne Comedy Festival + great company = A Fab Weekend!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-07-28T11:48:00.001+08:00

Last week was great…met Bharat after a long time…we were supposed to meet for coffee but ended up doing so much more…we met up at Bugis and headed to Breeks for coffee… but we ended up drinking Corona… it tasted ok…better than other beers…but I still love my red wine…reminiscing about the past was fun…
He is now some big time producer who has worked with some big time people in the UK… he’s now a SUPERSTAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hahahahaha….
Talking about the people and the place… BP was the happening place… I remember clubbing every single night… he would miss school and his girl friend would miss work… all chilling in BP… jeez… how the 2 years pass… I have no idea… taught me a lot of lessons those years…
He was nagging about me being single and not settling down… He sounded a bit like my mom… hahahahaha… Well, he gave me an ultimatum… if I am not married by next year, he will find me a guy and get me married off… *yea like that would happen; I would be running off the other direction when it comes to commitment*
he was kinda shock when he found out that I stopped clubbing… he thought I was the same… hahahahaha… the last I actually clubbed was on my birthday when I was super gone… so that night we decided to check out the Hindi pubs as well as have good North Indian food… we ended up in Shish Mahal…
oohhhh!!!!! I missed their food terribly… the waiter, Ramesh, I think recognized me and went out of his way to make me feel comfortable… I had good Hindustani khana and I was over the moon… according to Bharat, I was like a school girl, getting all excited… the problem was I have not had Hindustani khana for long time because Luke cannot take spicy food… and Western Food compared to Indian food, tasted kinda bleh… not that I don’t enjoy looking for good places to eat…
After eating, we head down to Boat Quay… took a bus there…felt weird but good…it was too early to go in anywhere else so we decided to be high - class sharabis and drink “orange juice”…we walked down Boat Quay and found the place to be dead at 11 at night… was pretty shocked… ended walking to Clarke Quay… Bharat decided to tell me loads of stuff…some of which has scared me for the rest of my life… things I didn’t need to know but was informed by Mr. Bharat Goel… finally, we ended up in Rupee Room…
Oh Good GOD!!!! I never knew Hindi music sounds so good… I guess the fact that I’ve not gone out for a long time played a huge part in me enjoying that night… I was off the hook… dancing all night long… Bharat got tired but he kept on dancing with me…poor guy…
After Rupee Room, we wanted to check out Krissh and Club Colaba… we found them dead and headed back to Rupee Room… I finally left at 4am…had work the next day…but was really happy to have spent a night out with him… we took some pix and they are with him… will upload them as soon as he passes them to me…
Went home to sleep for awhile and headed out to work…came back home and got ready to go out to the Melbourne Comedy Festival… been waiting for it for ages…
Luke picked me up at 6 and we went to have dinner at Café Iguana… food, just like Brewerkz, was not fantastic… drinks were awesome… there was an irritating French man trying way too hard to impress the girl…
Managed to finish our dinner without killing anyone and headed off to the DBS thingy where the festival was to be… I didn’t get lost which was a good thing…
Parking was easy… got to the place and I was shocked to see so many Aussies… I kinda knew there were loads of expats but Aussies kinda dominated the expat market… Luke was equally shocked… I got the tickets and he got the drinks… White wine tasted horrible and we shared a glass… he didn’t get his coffee…
The bell rang and we went into the auditorium…
Dave Callan was the emcee for the night… we both enjoyed the bit about his “special moustache”; it was so special that it grew on his chin… AND IT’S CALLED A “BEARD”… every time he walked in, there was rock music playing in the background… he looked like a rocker plus the music amplifying his persona… he was cool and we loved the SIM LIM = WHORE HOUSE FOR GEEKS… it was hilarious and the funny things was Luke and I were there the week before getting him a lap top and he said something of that nature too… he was joking about Utt’s new advert for chicken essence which I think is so gay… let’s all give him a LOL!!!!!!!
Hannah Gadsby was good; talking about lesbos and fat-phobic people… describing Tassie and all… she rocked… BIG - HIPPED PEOPLE ARE INSANELY FUNNY!!!
2nd speaker was Sammy J… I swear there’s something in his juice… he was majorly hyper… he took of a button every time the ladies made a cat call and when he took off his shirt, he was amazingly skinny….eeeewwwww!!!!!! Thank God! Luke is big!!!!
There was a short break after the 1st act and Luke needed his coffee… we got out and he handed me his wallet, “Love, You know what I want… I’ll see you outside…”
He can’t handle crowds…
We went in for the second half….someone had actually gone out and bought a bottle of chicken essence and dared him to drink it… he said he was a vegetarian and would not try it and out comes Sammy, gulping it down…
We love the 3rd speaker, Dave Thornton…he was simply amazing… he was talking about being unemployed and tradesmen… and I could relate to the tradesmen, thanks to Luke…
The last speaker, Denise Scotts, was more into the breast and sluts and shitty people living in this world…
Overall, it was a perfect and wonderful night… needed a good laugh and boy did I get it all…
Met some of colleagues there and the 6 of us went to the corner for a drink… the company was great, the drinks were cheap… Barbara was nice… I think we were the only 2 out of the industry… she was in the airline industry and I am in the travel industry… so we were talking about ANG-MOH men and all while the rest were talking about the industry… we left nearing to midnight and Luke’s Lucifer eyes had come out… reached home about 12.45am, changed and slept…
The next morning, we ventured towards the Rail Mall… memories came flooding back to me… I miss Cold Storage Shopping… we bumped into his friend, Paul, I think, I’m so sorry I’m bad with names… we had breakfast at Coffee bean which was surprisingly good…they talked for awhile and we left to head out to town while they wanted to go some beer-fest…
We couldn’t get a parking lot in Suntec, thus pissing him further… we got out and got a lot in Marina Square…
Went to Habanos to get his cigars and sat at the Hawaiian concept joint for some Mango – Orange Shake… it was refreshing in the heat… sat and talked about everything while he smoked his cigar… we headed to Marina Square… found a new Yank restaurant and decided to give it a try… the food was good and the price was cheap… in fact it was much better than Iguana…
Luke was falling sick…and I’m kinda worried for him… he looked and sounded horrible…I think the stress and sleep deprivation is taking a toll on him…
Hopefully, he will feel better….
Got home and brought my babies out… Romeo is super pampered… he sleeps on my bed with me and loves to sit on my lap… love him to bits though…
Wanted to sleep early but I ended up watching Tenacious D and I now pronounce you Chuck and Larry… ended up sleeping at 1 am…
Took a cab again this morning…hopefully I can break this habit soon coz it’s getting really expensive…
Phew… that’s a long post…
Well, till the next post…
Ciao…

It's Friday!!!!!!!!!

2008-07-25T13:18:00.003+08:00

Hello....

Turns out that I’m not free... gotta redo my last assignment... haiz... got my tourist guide exams on the 18th of next month also... haiz haiz haiz...

stop laughing Veron!!!!!!! It’s not funny!!!! A

nyhoo, this week has been a blast so far…work’s going great and the best part was the dinner date on Tuesday with Deb, Ver & Ras… it’s been too long… a pity AD & Jo couldn’t make it…

Luke gave me a surprise by coming down all the way from Woodlands, even though he was tired, dirty and smelly… I think that was sweet of him… taking picture before and while eating reminded me how clicker crazy we were during class days… Hahahahaha… we drove the people around us mad with our clicking…

we hope to make this into a monthly thing… let’s see…

great meeting them and reminiscing about school days…can’t believe it’s all over… it just seems to have past by so fast… kinda scary how time flies by… July is coming to an end soon… the year is whizzing past me and I can’t do anything to stop it… not that I’m complaining but I guess I don’t wanna be another year older just yet…well, tomorrow is Saturday and I have booked the tickets for the Melbourne Comedy… been looking forward to it… the weekend’s gonna be hectic…

I gotta do my assignment by this weekend… been sitting on it too long… next week’s work schedule jammed up… I can’t wait for August...

Going away for a Bintan familiarization trip… I so need a break…

Mom & bro gonna go away for a week in Aug and I have to do free house – sitting… *mumbles* I don’t get paid to sit houses…

I think it’s a profession somewhere… hmmmm…. Anyway, I have so much to say… but somehow can’t really say it out …

Writer’s block maybe????

GTG…

Will update soon with a story *maybe* & Melbourne Comedy Festival…

Have a great weekend people!!!!!!!!!!!!!

CIAO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Glimpse of (Expensive) Paradise

2008-07-23T07:54:00.000+08:00

Outline: Is Jurong Bird Park worth every penny?

The journey from Orchard Road to the Jurong Bird Park was a long bus ride. As I look on both sides of the expressway and roads, I found them flanked with a mixture of high and low rise concrete buildings.

“How on earth can one have a bird park amidst all these buildings? Won’t the birds get confused?” exclaimed my friend, Jean, who has never been to Jurong Bird Park with me.

Tucked in the corner of the western, industrial area of Singapore, Jurong Bird Park is a sight for sore eyes. Amongst the concrete jungle, one would be amazed to find a lush, green environment, even the structures are made to incorporate the “green” theme.

In Singapore, where land is scarce, a hefty 20.2 hectares was allocated to the Jurong Bird Park. The Jurong Bird Park houses 9000 birds from 600 species and specializes in birds from Southeast Asia, making it one of the largest in the world.

The mission state of the Bird Park is to conserve, research, educate and recreate.

As I entered the park, I was pleased to find myself being transported to another world, a world with beautiful flowers, plants and the different calls of different birds. However, the downside was the honking of huge vehicles emitting from the main road.

As we crossed the entrance, we found a map indicating where the rest of the attractions were located as well as the timings of the different bird shows.

We walked further into the park and saw the African Wetlands exhibit. The design was to stimulate wetland with tall grasses and aquatic riverside plants. Aptly named, most of the birds originate from the African wetlands. As I spoke to an Indian tourist, he was amazed at how the birds believe that they are in their homelands and not some man made environment.

Venturing further, we went into the “World of Darkness”. As we entered, we overheard a tourist guide explaining the concept of the place.

“The design stimulates night sky in the star-lit jungle path bypassing a mangrove swamp. There is also an icy mountain patch for the Snowy Owls. Please bear in mind that flash photography is not allowed in the exhibit and do wait for awhile before entering so that your eyes would get adjusted to the darkness.”

As we walked into the exhibit, I was fascinated to find a vast variety of owls. Personally I liked the barn owl. At first glance, I thought that it was just an ornament until it blinked and swooped down to catch its prey.

I asked a care-taker when do the owls rest and she told me that after closing hours, there would be bright lights in the exhibit. This is to stimulate the day sky and to give them a chance to rest.

Leaving the “World of Darkness”, we went to catch the “Birds ‘n Buddies” show. It was a treat for the young and old alike. One never knows where to watch out for the birds.

Presenters were emphasizing that the birds were trained professionally and no one should try this at home. The message that one should be kind to animals was put across subtly.

As the show ended, we proceeded to the Southeast Asia Aviary to catch the mock thunderstorm that happens once a day at noon.

The board outside the aviary read as this is where we could watch the birds in action, trying to hide so as to not get wet.

Unfortunately, most of the birds were in hiding thus only fluttering and the calls were heard. We got wet as there was a slight drizzle during the thunderstorm.

As we walked out of the aviary, one could see that the place is children-orientated. From the playgrounds, to the baby pool and the shows organized, the place has become a learning ground for children.

As we walked past the pool, watching the children play in the water half-tempted us to join them. The thought of us being soaked through was a relief against the humidity.

However, we stopped ourselves as the thought of wet clothes sticking to our body throughout our journey home disgusted us.

Proceeding on to the Penguin Parade, “an exhibit that should not be missed” according to tourists and locals alike.

Stepping into the exhibit, I was not prepared for the extreme temperature drop. It was about 10 degrees compared to the 31 degrees outside. The penguins seemed oblivious they were on display and we caught a pair of penguins engaging in the act of “recreation”.

A group of young children saw it and were screaming, “Mummy!!!! They are fighting.” Parents turned pink and ushered their children out with the promise of an ice-cream each.

Ironically, the exit of the Penguin exhibit is the entrance of the gift shop where parents were seen haggling with their children on which toy to buy and which is the cheapest.

I would suggest to patrons to buy food and drinks before coming to the park. Everything is over-priced. For two dollars, one would get 1.5 liter bottled water but at the park, you would get a 500ml bottle. An ice-cream that would cost a dollar cost nearly three dollars.

We then heard another rumble. It was no bird but our tummies beckoning us to have our lunch.

Walking towards the exit, we found ourselves in another gift shop. It was as though the park was telling the visitors to stock up on what they have bought or to buy more.

Exorbitant prices stopped us from getting anything. Some of the items, for example a jumbo pencil were going for twelve dollars, when we could get it for five dollars at a discount store with a free sharpener thrown in.

Walking towards Bongo, the exterior reminded one of prehistoric times. The stoned exterior and the rough cut furniture reminded me of exhibits I see at the museum. As we walked in, there was a contrast. The interior reminded me of Mexico, with the smell of salsa, and the cactus as well as the sombrero.

Staff were cheerful but impatient as we took sometime to decide what to have. The restaurant was nearly empty and yet they looked as though they had to be somewhere. We ordered a Bongo Burger as well as Fish and Chips. They cost us thirty dollars. Shocked, we decided to wait for our meal.

The meal arrived half an hour later. Apparently they have punished us for being indecisive. The Bongo burger was a normal cheeseburger and the Fish tasted as though it had been fried twice. The fries that came along were plump and moist.

The plus factor would have been the mugs that they serve the drinks in. they look like bottles with handles. We wanted to siphon the mugs if not for the hawk-eyed staff.

In all the dining experience would be better if only the food was less expensive and there would be variety of restaurants available.

Children will find this place as a learning centre due to the many plagues around the sites that can be read by their care-takers or parents.

However, the place is equally commercialized. The strategic positioning of the gift shops as well food counters makes one unable to avoid. Adults would ignore, on the other hand, children get agitated and start to throw tantrums until they get something to stop thinking about the heat.

Overall, visiting the Jurong Bird Park was an eye-opener. As a Singaporean, I never knew that there were so many different things to do at the park. The color of the background as well the colorful birds brings one into another realm. It’s a calming but expensive experience.

I'm Free!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FREE I TELL U!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-07-16T13:59:00.000+08:00

The day that I have been waiting for is finally here… I’M FREE!!!!!!!!!!!

No more assignments from UNISA anymore… Yes I’m finally done with school…

To all those people who thought that I could not make it… IN YOUR FACE!!!!!!!!!!

My next step, I think is to do my Masters… in what? I’m not too sure…I think I’ll take some time…wanna expand my business first…

My tourism studies on the other hand, has been put on hold… my MCQ is on the eighteenth next month… gotta study hard man… I know I can do it…

met Su Su y’day… bought him a shirt for his birthday…asked him to meet me ‘cause I needed him to be my model… he was sulky and his exact phrase was “I FEEL CHEAP”… hahahahaha… when I gave him the shirt, he was elated… after 2 years, I finally gave him a gift… price of the shirt = $XXXXX.00 price of the look on his face = PRICELESS… hahahahahahaha…

he told me last week over MSN his relationship was over… I felt sad… when we met y’day; we were talking about his r’ship… I knew that he loved his girl… he always told me he saw a future with her… he seemed to have embraced the truth of them being apart…

It got me thinking… Been going through loads of stuff in my mind… over the past years, I’ve done loads of stuff, some good and some bad… I’ve never regretted anything so far…all this made a better and stronger person… made me realize who are my friends and joy-riders… I’m at good place now… I enjoy coming to work, no matter how tiring it can be… I enjoy my lil puppy no matter how times I scold him… He can’t use the toilet to do his business… he prefers that everyone watch him do his stuff… pretty funny actually… quite an attention seeker… he doesn’t like being ignored… my life right now is going great… I’ve had my good days and bad days… but right now, everything is going great…I’m glad I took all the decisions… it might have been tough to stick by them but it’s so worth it…

On a brighter note, UNISA Study Group 9 is meeting for dinner next week… I miss you guys… the rush, the joy and the sadness…I really hope that all of them can make it… Ver, Ras, Debbie and I can make it but the rest has not given an answer as of yet…

Its August next month…the year seems to be coming to an end… it’s so sudden… too fast in fact… I’m gonna be yet again a year older and that is not a good thing… haiz…

Well, as the saying goes “out with old and in with the new”, so hope that next year I would be getting the good news that I am hoping for…

As for my Australia trip, I might be postponing it… It all depends on my tourist guide exams…

Maybe I’ll go there in June… it would be winter and a nice change from the ever-summer Singapore…

Ok… I gotta go now…

Wanna go home and play with my baby Romeo…

Ciao

Update: I just got off the phone with Veron; she can’t make it on Tuesday, so we are all meeting on Monday, I think…

ready. set, go

2008-07-09T09:38:00.000+08:00

It’s coming to about a month since I last blogged. Been really busy with work and school… I flunked my tourist guide exams so have to wait till August before I register again… so that’s blehhhh!!!! However, I’ve only got 1 assignment left…then I’m a free birdie… muhahahahahahahahaha *evil laughter* <----- Ver... i don't know whether you would be reading this; but it's for you....

It’s been a pretty eventful past month …Been watching a lot of movies…I think there are no movies to watch anymore…two weekends ago, I brought my mom and brother out to watch “Get Smart”…it was a good movie…I grew up watching Get Smart so I kinda knew about the older gadgets like the “SHOE PHONE” and the phone booth…it was funny…couldn’t stop laughing… on Sunday met up with Luke to watch “You don’t mess with the Zohan” and that night I met Kak Asmah to watch “SATC”…it was such a good movie…I want my happy ending…*haiz*…

over the past few weeks, I met up with Ravin a few times...it was good to meet up after so long…he has matured over the 2 years…went shopping on Friday with Kak Asmah and blew about $600.00 within 2 hours…quite a achievement…bought so much stuff…spent weekdays mostly working and trying to finish assignments…

Saturday was the bomb…Luke surprised me by telling me that it’s gonna be my day…normally half the time he was always stressed over work and would be calling in to find out his crew progress…but on that day, he told me that he won’t get distracted…so finally I had him to myself with no work attachments…we went to catch the movie “Wanted” which was kinda cool… would definitely watch the movie again…we went out for dinner and went back home after that…The next day, we went to causeway point to watch “Incredible Hulk”…’Hulky’ is cute… *enough said*

I realized that I’ve pretty much stopped clubbing…I think it’s a good thing…most of my weekends are spent either at home or I’m out with Luke… I’m so sorry to all…I dunno why I don’t feel like clubbing…I think I might go this weekend…kinda miss clubbing….hahahahaha…

I think things are starting to fall in place now…I feel so much better…things are starting to come into perspectives and fog of confusion is disappearing….

In short, compare to me to the last year “ME”…. I think I’m happier now…..

bleh!!!!!

2008-06-20T06:54:00.001+08:00

Lets101 Quizzes - Blog Quiz

it wasn't easy

2008-06-16T12:44:00.000+08:00

It’s Monday and I’m super bored…

So here’s a short story for all to enjoy…

As I sit and reminisce about our past I wonder whether I have done the right thing…

Letting you go was the hardest thing I ever did but I knew that holding on would be just as painful…

You were slipping through my fingers as would sand do…

All I wanted was you to love but you have shown me hatred… we were in this together but somehow you continued the journey on your own…we started threading on paths away from each other…am calling you back but you have moved so far ahead…

Finally you have realized the drifts and distance but it’s all too late… too late for you to come back…cause this time, I’ve gone too far from you…

You failed to realize the difficulties I had to face when I was trying to walk on my own… removing my dependence on you was the hardest thing to do… suddenly I was thrust into the world of uncertainties and all I had was myself to figure everything out…

Your protective cover was gone when I needed the most…So many things were left unsaid…

Now you are back…asking me to pick up from where we left off…now how am I supposed to do that????

I gave you my heart and all I got back was pieces of it…

After all the pain I went through, I closed my heart to all…but you are back and you expect me to open up…

How can I understand you when you never gave me a chance to stand by you in times of darkness??? All you did was to push me further while you had gone through it…

Letting you go wasn’t easy… I tried with all my might to gather bits and pieces of happiness to shoe you but all you need was to shove me away and told me “It’s no use…All is over…”

Letting you back isn’t going to be easy either…questions arise and are left unanswered… I have no idea how long are going to stay this time…

We have proven to each other time and time again…we are drifters in each others’ lives… we pass by time and time again only to be separated…

My heart can’t take it anymore… you have killed me once 4 years ago and have succeeded in killing me again…

I don’t think I can take it anymore…

You are free to go and no one is gonna stop you…

However, do not doubt the love I have for you as every time a doubt occurs, you have killed me once again…

i miss u daddy

2008-06-16T09:36:00.000+08:00

Happy 55^th Birthday Daddy!!!!!!

Happy Daddy’s Day!!!!!!

No matter how old I may be, I’m a daddy’s girl and I’m not shy to admit it…I love him fiercely and hate anyone hurting him…don’t get me wrong…I do love my mom but I’ve always been in love with my dad…I looked up to him as a role model and hope that one fine day, I would be able to find someone who loves me and cherishes me like my dad. He overlooks my faults and loves me unconditionally…I would never change my parents for anything in the world…

I want my daddy…*pouts*

I’m missing him too much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

RIP Chinu 11.06.08 - we love u...

2008-06-11T10:59:00.001+08:00

it's kinda depressing day...as I got out of bed at 7am...I couldn't stop crying...today's the day we put my baby, Chinu down...I know everyone must be wondering how can I put down a dog who just gave birth...truth is, she is really sick and the doctor suspected she had cancer...it's amazing that her kids turned out fine...even as she gave birth, I could feel her giving up half way...I kept on procrastinating the whole thing...I just didn't wanna let her go...finally I made the decision to put her down and to end her suffering...

I remember the 1st time she came to stay with my family...didn't like her much as she always bullied Lassy, my other dog...

when I moved out, Chinu fell very sick and I had to bring her to the vet...didn't want to but I did anywayz...brought her to my place to stay and subsequently after that, I started loving her...she would always wait for me to come home before she eats and loves to go out w/o the leash...she's a lovable creature and would always sleep in the bed with me...if I were to go out and not tell her, she would show her irritation by peeing all over the house...

she used to irritate and yet be so special to me at the same time...she loved my Narnia blanket...I gave it to her to keep her warm and even bought her a little bed...which she hardly used as she was on my bed...she was the one who would keep me company on dark nights and moments...whenever I would breakdown, she would stop whatever she would be and she would come over and sit in my place and look at me...it was as though she was telling me that she would be with me no matter what...she was always there for me...when I flunked my exams or even failed an assignment...the simple gesture of placing her paw on me made me feel so good...days when I fight with my dad and the rest of the world...she had always been there for me...

When she gave birth, I was with her holding her paw assuring her that I will be there for her...

She would love to run in the field but would always look back to see whether I would be there for her...

She always looked for assurance from me and my family members...she was a special creature...

Things got worse after she gave birth...she became terribly sick....

this morning when I carried her, it was as though she knew she was going to sleep forever...I wrapped her in her Narnia blanket and for once, she didn't struggle...even during the cab ride to the vet's...she was calm and composed...I hugged her tightly and she sighed loudly...I told her that I love her and she nuzzled her wet nose against my cheek..The vet asked me whether I wanted to see her go and I told her no...I started crying even before I stepped out of the room...my mom was there with me and she comforted me telling me that Chinu is going go to a better place...I couldn't see her for the last time...I always want to remember her as the pet that I grew to love and gave me pleasure in her simple way...

I believe she is in a happy place...playing with all her friends and her parents as well...she's looking down at me and is telling me that I am happy...

will be collecting her ashes in 2 weeks time...don't know whether I should throw it in the sea or should I keep it...mom tells me that we should scatter her ashes into the sea...I was shocked when my mom cried as well...my mom's the stronger one...I am emotionally weak...

She has left behind memories and she has made me into a person who can love once again...

CRAZINESS

2008-06-03T08:12:00.001+08:00

am really feeling the strain of it all....
things not going according to plan...it's so frustrating....i m at the brink of sanity.....tempted to give it all up and just leave....
things are going crazy at work....
on top of everything, i get irritated by the state of the toilet.....whenever i go in my favourite cubicle, i just wanna puke (YES I DO HAVE A FAVORITE TOILET)
somehow i suspect that some guy is using the ladies toilet.....we don't have THINGS to hold and aim so why can't one just shoot it in the bowl....all we do is sit and let it out....is that so difficult??????
every time i go in i have wipe the seat and the floor (I USE LOADS OF TOILET PAPER), i flush and then i sit.... its as though i m the cleaner.....can't blame the cleaner much.... it's just the inconsiderate shit heads.....
i mean seriously ladies.... it ain't so difficult for you to sit and pee....u need not use your brains that much....
i kinda suspect about the intelligence of women....don't get me wrong....i am a woman and yet i doubt about other women....
they act as though if they should ever use their brains, they would suffer from PHD....
especially if they are around guys that they like....i don't think guys would like to hang out with me if i acted like a dumb blonde....
i've seen ladies go so low just to please the guy...i wonder if it is worth it all......
i think a guy should like me for who i m and not for what i can be....
Mohan used to tell me that there isn't a guy out there for me....
could he be true????
i just wonder.....
its 6.30...
i go to go to mom's shop to do my brows.....

random Q & A....

2008-05-27T12:23:00.002+08:00

1. Do you think it is alright to be seeing more than one person of the opposite sex?
- yea why not??? it's not as though u have commited anything...
2. What do you want the most now?
- my bed.... and sum1's neck...
3. Do you feel that sometimes you are over used by friends?
- yea...
4. Do you hate your friends sometimes?
- yupz... i do... but i guess that's y we have a love-hate r'ship...
5. What will you do, if a totally not idealistic opposite gender person confess to you?
- i'll give it a go and see what ...
6. What do you think of the idea of people (even yourself) having crushes on other people while they(the 'crushers') are attached?
- i think its healthy... i mean hey, if it rocks their boat then why not????
7. What impossible things you would wish to do?
- Hmmmm...... maybe i would like to go bungee jumping...
8. Do you believe in eternal love?
- yea... it kills...
9. Have you broken some one's heart that he/she tried to commit suicide?
- ok this one i gotta agree with runie...an ex dies so is that considered? :D
10. What feeling do you love most?
- being pampered by my friends and loved ones...
11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
- Thou must not bore me...
12. What feeling do you hate the most?
- Disappointment....
13. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
- of coz i do...
14. Is there anything you're looking forward to in the next few weeks?
- my trip to bintan...
15. What is the sweetest thing someone of the opposite gender has done for you?
- bought my a lovely chain for my birthday...
16. Who do you hope to be always there for you?
- Mom/Ling/
17. Would you ever want to go back to who you were
- nah...love myself for being me...
18. Who do you love the most?
- my marmie...
19. What will you do if your best friend falls in love with the same person as you do?
- shit happens!!!!all's fair in love and war... but i think i would give it up.....am on a dating hiatus... *stop laughing
20. What's the craziest thing(s) you ever did?
- had a wonderful star gazing night with Kermit....

last day of school & my birthday

2008-05-22T10:27:00.005+08:00

Last weekend was the last day of my BA20 classes as well as my birthday weekend..... pretty sad coz classes have ended...I think I will miss APMI Kaplan and Centrepoint's food...especially the kueh tutu we oh so loved from the Cold Storage...

Saturday just felt so weird...we all knew that classes were gonna end soon and that would be the last we would meet...well r'ships are formed and are developed over time...like me and my mates...we all had different opinions of each other...but who knew by having a multi-racial group, we turned out to be the best last minute planners…rushing to do our presentations on the last day…trying to cram different personalities into a 15 min presentation so as to not let anyone feel left out… AD’s last minute creativity, Ras’s excellent PowerPoint skills, Veron’s in-depth research and not forgetting out adopted member Joanna’s ability to blend into our group and able to tie everything together…

though we had our differences, we never let it affect our group and we all knew that if there is something that we have a problem with, voicing it out and thrashing out other alternatives and solutions would be the way to go…I’ve worked in many groups but somehow in this group, we seemed to complement each other and that was the most amazing part…we knew we could always count on each other for support, be it for studies or personal life…

I really thank god for Veron, Joanna and Debbie for putting some sense into me when I was going through a bad patch…we were the noisiest and we told to shut up in all the classes…Every lecturer must have remembered our group way too well……

let’s not forget Mr. K.L…Mr. Enthusiast……calling and emailing us to remind us about school…appearing in classes on the 1st day of each module in his one and only suit…constantly serving the nation….I now can sleep in peace…

I’m still pretty unsure whether I should do my master’s as of yet…. I think

I would give myself a few more years then decide….office work is really tough and if I were to my master’s now…I would really crack……I guess it now time to concentrate on my guiding exams which is on the 2nd June… I will be getting the itinerary on the 26th of this month…I can’t wait for this to be over…

Moving on to my birthday, my classmates wanted to surprise me by buying me a cake but I was with them all the time so they could not do anything…Mr. K.L then came in with some cakes and I had to hold that and pose…

the touching part of that was that the class sang “Happy Birthday”…I was like “aaaaawwwwww”… it was uber sweet of them…I normally surprise them on their birthdays when they are during class times, like Debbie’s and Veron’s and now they surprised me…I was really touched and honored…though a little embarrassed but they put a huge smile on my face…

after class, Luke was supposed to pick me up, but being new in Singapore, he got lost…finally managed to meet him at Golden Mile…we went out for dinner at Brewerkz…which for the record, sucked big time…the food wasn’t up to our expectations…

the company was great though…

we then walked over the bridge and off to TCC for some coffee…I was having a good time… We left Clarke Quay as we were tired and I reached home at about 10……managed to catch” 2 Weeks Notice”……always seemed to miss the movie for god knows whatever reason……somehow, I didn’t feel like going out and it was Saturday and not forget the eve of my birthday……at 12 midnight, my brother came in with this huge cookies and cream Swenson’s’ cake and on it there 2 big candles and 1 small candle…mom and bro said that no matter how old I get, I would be always 21 in their hearts……now aren’t they the sweetest????Veron messaged and wished me and so did my other friends……I slept at about 3.30am…no I did not go out at all……was watching Hindi movies…

the next day Mohan asked me out for a movie……we went to watch Harold & Kumar Escape from Guantanamo Bay……it was kinda weird……I mean Mohan is my MBF…and we have discussed stuff before…but watching it was kinda weird…after the movie, I met up with Luke and we went off for dinner…… Mohan could not join us so it was just the both of us…we went off to Billy Bombers and this time the food was good…I didn’t have any as I was full from the huge cheesy hotdog but Luke enjoyed his food… he bought me a beautiful necklace…it was awesome…while I had 2 “sex-on-the-beach” cocktail……

we headed of to Gotham after that…we took the train and boy was it crowded……reached Gotham and we ordered wine……the objective of the night was to get myself drunk and trust me…it didn’t take long……

Subash and his friend came for awhile and we had a good time……Luke was enjoying the attention around him until I came over…I guess most of them assumed that I was his girlfriend and we didn’t bother correcting anyone……we left shortly as I was pretty high and didn’t wanna drink……

met my other brother and both of them a had good time talking to each other…kinda figured……they both love the same kind of music……headed back to his place coz I was in no condition to go home……super embarrassing coz he was commenting about me snoring and sleeping with my eyes half opened……hahahahaha…anyway told him that I was way too smashed……

left his place at about 6 plus and reached home in time to watch “Dr. Do Little 2”……caught up with my Monday Night Laughs on Star World as well as my Hindi dramas on Zee……my flu was getting worse so I popped 2 pills and decided to read (realized that I have not read for a long time and all of my books that are left on my shelves are my academic stuff)……fell asleep shortly……woke up the next morning and the flu thingy was getting better at all……decided to take the day off and went to the doctor’s……apparently I had caught some kinda flu bug and needed a jab……brought home loads of meds to take…haiz……I think I gotta change my multivitamins……they ain’t helping……in fact I’m falling sick more often……
I feel much better and think that I was reading too much into stuff………in fact I think that my life’s gonna take on a new direction and I am looking forward to it……am not gonna dwell into what people think of me coz I think I have wasted too much time in that………It’s now gonna be about what I think is right and doing what I know is right……… I gotta get back to work now………

Ciao

Ps. I know many of you have been wondering about this new character in my life, Luke, and many have made the assumption that he is my boyfriend and all that so I am gonna set the record straight once and for all…Luke is my friend and we are JUST FRIENDS… if anything were to happen, I promise you guys would be the second to know(my family and friends come first)…

Pss. Oh yea……hello stalker………it doesn’t make a difference to me about your thoughts and views……u can shove them up your bloody arse for all I care……in fact I think you should take hike……

Birthday Prezzie from Ms Julia

2008-05-22T10:26:00.000+08:00

This what i wrote for a class reflection piece.....Surprised to get a Distiction.....

On the night before the presentation, the eleventh hour, we found out that the session 10 is from the course book and not the CD-rom as I had assumed. I felt upset and thought that I had disappointed the team. Even though no one blamed me, I could tell they were angry. Subsequently, we managed to gather our thoughts and decided to embark on a new direction, the actual given topic. Two nights before, 15 May 2008, everyone, excluding Ras, who was absent, decided to do a skit on a French man taking over a local chicken rice stall. This would cover our module of culture diversity. Ras was informed by Adrian calling him on his mobile the next day. Veronica, Debbie and I communicated through our mobiles trying to get some ideas about the skit and we decided to discuss them in class with the rest of out team mates.
Alas, that was not the case.
Finding out that we were on the wrong track, we quickly started reading the new chapters and debating on a new topic. I know that I can be dominating but I was trying to set an idea as no one had anything to say. Apparently, that seemed to be the wrong thing as an argument had erupted, making things progressively get out of hand and no one seemed to agree with anyone. Adrian was trying to absorb the new topic, Veronica was keeping mum, unsure of what to say, Debbie came up with an idea regarding her work place, Ras, Joanna and I started to debate on the topic that I came up with. Things got out of hand eventually. Joanna, Adrian and I went to another desk to come up with a skit while Debbie, Ras and Veronica were planning to work on Debbie’s idea. Since we were given the most time to present, we decided to stick on to the initial plan of doing the skit and having two different acts to depict the different effects of globalisation and the introduction of technology. I agreed and we delegated our duties mutually.
I agreed to plan out the PowerPoint slides for the conclusion of the skit that I was going to present while Adrian and Joanna would come up with the dialogues. Debbie and Veronica were to be the director of the other skit while Ras was supposed to come up with the PowerPoint slides. As it was late and the cleaners had to lock up, we decided to head home and to do our parts for the assignment.
Once home, we communicated through mobiles as well as emails. I started working on my slides and I called Adrian informing him that I would be emailing my slides for him to take a look at and to incorporate other information that I had missed out. I also told him that I do not have my thumb drive and asked him to save it on his thumb drive and asked him to bring it tomorrow. I tried to call Joanna but I think she was asleep as she did not answer her mobile. I talked to Veronica discussing the argument we had in class as well as the after-effects.
Veronica was worried that if we stuck to doing two different skits then Julia would assume that the team had split into two an we were doing our individual work. I agreed with her and told her that we shall discuss this at lunch tomorrow when we meet before classes.
Personally, the bigger the group, the harder to get consensus from as everyone has their own perspective and ideas. We have worked in a group before and we always seemed to get everything done with out confrontations. However, we believe that due to the high percentage of this assignment, it brought out the ugly side of us. It is sad as this is our last semester together and I do not want us to part with grudges in our hearts. Hopefully after tomorrow’s presentation, we could go out for a nice friendly dinner and we would be able to put everything behind us and be friends again.

This what my lecturer commented it :
Anita
You have provided a good account of the way that the group overcame a last minute hitch in the preparation of the presentation. You account is quite emotional but that is understandable given that you hold yourself responsible for the last minute problem. The cohesiveness of the group was demonstrated by the way in which the group pulled together an excellent presentation and your previous experiences have worked to ensure that the group worked together well in a productive manner.
Reflection piece grade – Distinction

It's my party and i'll cry if i want to.....

2008-05-16T10:33:00.001+08:00

Time flies by when one fails to notice it....a year has passed me by and so many things have happened...friends have come and gone...r'ships have been mended or bruised....whichever way u chose to look at it, a lot of stuff has happened in this one year....I have come to stage where I realized life is whatever you want it to be....

am going thru some kinda hormonal imbalance....am gonna turn 26 in 2 days' time...it's super depressing...I'm gonna be old....I miss my BFF....it coming to a month since I last saw her....I need her now more than ever....

been looking in my life and realized that most of the friends I had were there for some reason or another....this is so unfair... all the friends that I have are classmates and other than them, the rest are mostly are guys... it's so despairing....I think I need more gal friends....too much testosterone ain't good for the lady.....

On a brighter note, Luke's back!!!!!!!!!!! It’s been a month since he came and I’ve been meeting him every weekend..... He’s just crazy…. Love his impression of Singaporeans…. Simply hilarious….

Classes are coming to an end....doing my final term now and feeling kinda sad that we are all gonna part and do our stuff in our little worlds....

Work has been going good…..

But somehow I got this nagging feeling that something is not right….don’t know what is it exactly but I do know something is wrong….

Am thinking of heading to Aussie in Dec… Luke might be going back for Christmas and I might join his family for Christmas after which I shall visit Patricia in Tasmania……

Let’s see how things go… now I just wanna make through my tour guide exams and get my license….. Everything else just comes after that……

Well, on a brighter note, I hope that me turning 26 would bring luck and happiness in my life……

Toodles………

TO CARRY OR NOT TO CARRY? AN UNANSWERABLE QUESTION....

2008-05-13T07:13:00.000+08:00

Should men be allowed near women’s bags? I think not. I personally think that my bag is part of my personal space and I don’t want my partner carrying it as though it were to be his.

Imagine a man who looks like Brad Pitt, has the body of David Beckham and the height of Dwayne 'The Rock' Johnson slinging a dainty pink purse on his shoulder and looking ever so proud. It was as though that was not a purse but a HERMES messenger bag.

Disgusted? I know I am.

Needless to say, I am single. I have yet to find a man who can keep his paws off my bag.

Appended below is an excerpt of an argument I heard recently.

Boy: “Darling, don’t want lah!”

Girl: “If you love me, you will do it.”

Boy: “Everybody will laugh at me.”

Girl: “I don’t care! If you don’t do it, I will break up with you.”

Before you write this off to be another cheesy dialogue in a teenage sex persuasion scene, let me assure you that this argument took place in noisy, crowded a coffee-shop.

I was enjoying my dinner with a friend, Luke. I looked up from my plate and found a couple arguing. The object or the subject of their argument was a pink, furry handbag. It was the kind that would put Barbie to shame.

I looked at Luke, who was enjoying his fish head curry so much and was oblivious to the argument. I nudged him and he was irritated. I asked him whether he would carry his partner’s bag. He looked at me incredulously. “Are you out of your mind?” he screamed. I shushed him and we proceeded on with our dinner.

That night, that scene was playing in my mind. Dissatisfied, I asked my S.N.A.G. (sensitive-new-age-guy) brother. Apparently, he shared the same views as Luke. He would be rather hung by his genitals.

Articles have been written, blogs have been blogged and debates have been fought. Unfortunately, no one has come to a conclusion. Each to their own, everyone else would say.

An article in The Straits Times on 24 February 2008 - “Do Singapore Women Expect Too Much?” got me thinking. As a woman of today, I believe in being independent and that means carrying my own bag, no matter how big, heavy and shoulder-shattering it might be.

How can I expect equality in a gender biased society when I can’t carry a handbag?

On Labour Day, as my mother and I walked around our heartland shopping centre, we were surprised when we saw a total of 30 men carrying their ladies bags’. However, the ladies were no where to be found. These men were proudly displaying the fact that they were “taken” for one and all to see.

Needless to say, we found the men spineless and found out that the women are the one who “wears the pants” in their relationship.

In this day and time, I would like to see a man who could stand up to his girlfriend and tell her to carry her stuff and not to be intimidated and bullied into carry their bags.

Ultimately, in my world, the answer to the age old question of to carry or not to carry would be NO.

TOP OF THE WORLD

2008-05-07T10:51:00.001+08:00

have not been blogging for a long time....been uber busy with work and school....attended school over the last week....great to have Sharon back....she's cool....having my last class next week....met Su Su y'day...we watched Ironman....the movie was awesome....Robert Downey Jr. was irresistible...i was drooling in the theatre.....felt good meeting him after so long...don't know y we stopped meeting....went home after that and played with my babies and fell asleep....I think I m sleep deprived.....work is taking a toll on me....not that I’m complaining..... Loving it to bitz....

okok gtg....still got loads of stuff to do.....till next time....

TGIF

2008-04-25T13:05:00.000+08:00

Have you noticed????

When your life is going great and when everything seems fine, but somehow deep down inside nothing feels right....

confused????

I know I am....

well, I'm back....finished my guiding exams and now bracing myself for the results....i so want this to be over asap....

on the other hand, i'm sad my BA classes are ending....haiz... as the saying goes all good things must come to an end....

i'm gonna miss all of them....especially my group members.....i remember doing all our class presentation last min and yet we get pretty good grades for them....hahahahaha.....

on the bright side, we can meet up w/o the fear of the impending deadlines looming over our heads....

ok back to mindless blogging, i wanna start my blog with a few lines someone sent me....

raah esi ho k vo chalne pe majbur ho jaye,

let the path compel him/her to walk on it

chahat esi ho k vo sochne majbur ho jaye,

let the path compel him/her to think about it

bhale na mile hame vo lekin intezar esa ho k vo aane pe majbur hojaye.....

it's ok if i don't get him/her, let the wait compel him/her to come back to me.....

not in the mood to write today

TGIF

2008-04-25T13:04:00.000+08:00

Have you noticed????

When your life is going great and when everything seems fine, but somehow deep down inside nothing feels right....

confused????

I know I am....

well, im back....finished my guiding exams and now bracing myself for the results....i so want this to be over asap....

on the other hand, i'm sad my BA classes are ending....haiz... as the saying goes all good things must come to an end....

i'm gonna miss all of them....especially my group members.....i remember doing all our class presentaion last min and yet we get pretty good grades for them....hahahahaha.....

on the bright side, we can meet up w/o the fear of the impending deadlines looming over our heads....

ok back to mindless blogging, i wanna start my blog with a few lines someone sent me....

raah esi ho k vo chalne pe majbur ho jaye,

let the path compel him/her to walk on it

chahat esi ho k vo sochne majbur ho jaye,

let the path compel him/her to think about it

bhale na mile hame vo lekin intezar esa ho k vo aane pe majbur hojaye.....

it's ok if i dont get him/her, let the wait compel him/her to come back to me.....

not in the mood to write today

i'm not missing you

2008-04-17T08:33:00.002+08:00

Hey,

the weather is so bloody shitty.....I am at work and all I wanna do is sleep...it would have been great if I were to be at home and my bed with my bolster and Paolo....haiz....anywayz I have my final assessment due next week and I have not prepared anything for it.....I m so gonna go down.... well I’ve been reciting a story in my head and I know that if I don’t jot it down, my head will explode so here goes the story for today......

Do not read my story and associate me with it.... *I’ll sock you*

If it’s about me, it will be stated so there..... *kapish????*

She looked at the phone....she willed it to ring....weird thoughts are running through her mind...what in the world is he up to???? Why has he not called me??? It’s been 3 days since we talked....what the hell is he trying to prove???? She reflects back to their last meeting....he claimed he had fun and all then why is he not calling???? She screams silently.....she picks up the phone wanting to call him but hesitates....why should she call??? Who is he to her anywayz???? Just a friend....so whether he calls or not shouldn't make any difference....she comforted herself with these thoughts....however, her brains were motioning her to go otherwise*funny how that works; why can't the mind and heart work together and come to a mutual understanding???*

she messages him.....wanting to give him a piece of her mind but holds her fingers back and sent him a polite message....he responded....somehow he seem nonchalant....that irked her some more...unfazed, she replied to his messages.....half of her wanted to pluck his hair, follicle by follicle, the other half of her was just glad that he responded....

As she lay on her bed and stared at the ceiling, she though she heard someone call out to her....it was her conscience...questions were being asked and answers were being given....

How can she be with someone when she is with someone else and he is with someone else????

At that moment in time, it's just the 2 of us....

How can she be the other woman when she told herself that she will never be the other woman???

As long as there is no talk about marriage, I’m not the other woman.......

Is she doing the wrong thing????

How can something so wrong feel so right????

Now that she is officially with no one but he is someone, does that make it all right???

Planning didn't get me anywhere and going with the flow seems to be working just fine.......

Being an emotional person, could she untangle her way out of the tangled mess???

Matters of the heart and mind are 2 different issues; me being with him makes me feel better mentally....

If she merely likes him, then why does she look forward to his sms and calls????

Finally an intellectual who will listen to me..........

Conscience walked away dejectedly...

Feeling confident and knowing that her life is in control, she moves on to conquer the world..... she knows she would not break down no matter how bad the circumstances may be....she believes that she is finally stronger and confident.... she thanks her ex for these new-found confidence and strength...if he wasn’t the whiny baby that he was, she would have never found her hidden quality or talent which is to be able to think out of the box and face any problems head on...she is moving along in life, leaving the tortoise version of her behind....no more cowering in the shell...living life precariously and loving every minute of it....

As for the both of them, they were together till he got married....on the eve of his wedding day, they bid each other adieu and went their separate ways......

Random Thoughts

2008-04-10T09:33:00.001+08:00

watched RUN FATBOY RUN yesterday....kinda nice movie...liked the dry humor...kinda inspiring in a weird way...hahahahahaha
David Schwimmer did a great job directing his debut movie. The humor was intellectual and the bottom line of this movie is to never give up no matter how shitty life can be....I enjoyed the part when the kid claims that he has a girl friend and runs away from home when she likes another kid because he has a pony tail.... *young innocent love* Somehow, the talk actually inspired him to run the marathon even though he had lost the woman that he loves to someone else....
Dennis attempts to be like Whit, who eventually turned out to be a twit.....
Dennis being Dennis is lovable in a sloppy kinda way....
I especially like Dylan Moran's character...his couldn't care less attitude and because of his bet, he tries unconventional methods to train Dennis...Mr G's spatula helps him to continue and eventually finish the race....
I would recommend all to watch this movie....ain't that spectacular but nice....

Semi - Pro however was a mindless movie....nothing much can be said much about it movie.... except that to leave your brains at home when you watch this movie...the humor's dead...will Ferrell's voice became irritating after some time...i guess he can be a part of the movie and not be the whole movie....*makes sense?* his presence was over powering and at some stage i felt a strong urge to hurl my popcorn at the screen....
if you want my advise on this movie, pls do not waste your money to watch it...don't even buy the movie.... rent it.....

in other happenings for today, came to work and found a trail of blood all the way to the car park... colleagues and have been speculating of some fight that might have happened last night....

finally PARKLANE SHOPPING MALL has got some action.....hahahahahahaha

Letter from the Heart - broken

2008-04-10T07:44:00.000+08:00

hey hey,

have not written a story for a long time.....

was drafting this last night.....

before i start, i gotta make myself clear,

THIS STORY IS NOT ABOUT ME; THIS IS RANDOM STORY......

Dear God,

I don't know why he called me tonight....We went out but I felt as though he was compelled... It was as though I was a thing and he was just doing his "duty"....Why did I go in the 1st place??? Why did I have to drop everything run to him??? Why must he be my 1st priority when I was neva his??? Why must I love him so much that it hurts every inch of my soul??? Why can't he understand??? I am not a thing...I happen to be a human being...I deserve to be loved....I was with him when he was down and now that he is back on the track it's time for my exit...I thought he loved me...I thought we could be together finally but I was so wrong...I just want to move away from him and everyone else... I don't wanna see, hear or talk about him or anyone else...Please give me the strength to move on in my life...I want to be happy...truly happy...I don't wanna put on my fake smile and tell the world that everything is dandy...Can I be selfish for once??? Can I put myself 1st??? Somehow I just wanna liberate myself from it all...I feel so lost in this big world....No one to call my own...I don't wanna live my life anymore....It's just so tiring....so painful to get out of bed every morning....every single day seems to be torturous....All I ever wanted was someone to call my own, a little happiness...was that too much????

I am tired of everything blowing up in my face....nothing seems to go right....I' m so tired of picking up the pieces and putting them back together....only to find the next person that comes along smashing it into pieces....

Oh God.... If you are listening, take me.....TAKE ME NOW...............

Beached out

2008-04-07T10:34:00.000+08:00

Saturday night was spent at the beach...wasn't feeling clubby, neither was feeling homely so called a friend and headed out the beach in Sentosa...it was fun...it was quiet...actually not so quiet coz some Indian monkey were creating a ruckus and swimming in the water in the middle of the night or should i say wee hours in the morning...it was a good and refreshing experience...got pretty spooked at first with things in the water...weird people choose weird time to swim...KM8 was closed and we realized that both of us did not buy any drink...luckily there were chairs and so we sat and talked...actually i talked and he listened ...god knows what was running in his mind...we then started talking about astronomy...it was kinda amusing because we both are clueless at what we were looking...there were little clouds...i don't know if anyone has actually done cloud - watching... i know i used to put chairs and a little table with a mug of milo outside my house just to watch the clouds go by... it's pretty fun u know...imagining the different shapes to be different stuff...apparently he has never done that and he found it weird...in short he found me weird and i smacked his arm...guess he was unaware of my fast reflexes...*HAIIIIIII - YAAAAAAAAAA*

anywayz, i don't think i have ever seen so many stars before in Singapore...i guess the light pollution in S'pore too damn high... but the stars were simply beautiful...i remember my mom telling me when i was little that when someone dies they go up and become a star to watch over you...i believe that my brother is there watching over me... was lying down on the the huge lounge chairs and we were looking up at the stars...

well, the some typical Indians started swimming in the sea, killing the silence.... we were contemplating the fact should 1 of them scream "someone's grabbing my leg.... HELP ME!!!!!" what would happen....i guess they would run for their lives leaving that person to die.... we also thought of talking really loud in tamil.....being the busy - bodies that they are they would be tempted to walk over... we left eventually at about five-ish and before we left, i distinctly remember him telling me, " I was physically exhausted when I came to meet you, now that we are leaving, I am both physically and mentally exhausted..." i could not stop laughing... it was super funny lah... his facial expression and all...

that night was funny; tiring; relaxing and stress free.....

i had a great time and the spontaneity was superb......

Too late to apologize........

2008-04-03T13:27:00.000+08:00

somehow, somewhere, someone is born for me.....

sounds familiar???????? how many times has this phrase gone through our minds....everyone of us are princesses and we should not tolerate any form of cruelty......just the other day, i was talking to someone about "special someone"..... it made me think.... is there really someone out there made for us????? or is it just a myth????? could it be just tale our parents made up for us???

sometimes i wonder about the irony of life...why does the heart yearns for one that you know it's wrong???? the logic of the heart always seems illogical...contradicting don't you think??? how come we miss the miss that we don't love more than the person we love??? it's so confusing....

its depressing when you are the receiving end of the brunt....r'ships of any kind are all about compromises....giving and taking....there is no such thing whereby every man is perfect...somehow in love all imperfections are overlooked....

i dream....

a dream whereby i would find myself the right partner one day.....

a dream where i can stand proud ann tell the world i have found my special one....

a dream where i can tell everyone that i m truly happy and complete in life?????

random-ness back again.....

cheers.....

super wild & hectic weekend

2008-04-01T10:18:00.001+08:00

hey hey.....
had a uber mad weekend..... actually the madness started on thursday.... supposed to meet some friends at the coffee shop and ended up being there till 5 in the morning.... went for my Tourist MCQ exams on Thursday......met up with Siva & gang in Yishun...had LJS for dinner and headed to Yishun....was supposed to be for awhile but ended up being there till 5am.....i tell S'pore is super small....everyone knows everyone....his friend, Kumar, ended up knowing my family super well....i also got some business for the company....reached home six plus and got ready for work....that night, i was at my mom's playing with the 2 puppies i had at home and chinu was really missing me....i was supposed to meet his friend in Yishun that night....wore the same pair of jeans and a simple t-shirt... *mom has the best collection of MNG t-shirts*
headed to yishun to deliver the ticket....got there and saw Kumar all dressed up....was thinking what was going on....everyone else was wearing shorts and tshirt....i got there and Kumar was trying to convince everyone to go clubbing....i was to go in my simple outfit....
*lucky i had my contacts with me; there was no way in hell i would actually end up in boat quay in my nerdy glasses*
the rest had to go and change...poor Subash....he had just undergone a major operation and yet he was also convinced to come...for once i knew that Kumar was on the right profession....
So we all made out way to Boat Quay....6 guys and 1 girl in 2 cars....i felt like a celebrity..... hahahahaha.....the guys were uber protective over me.....met some undesirable people.... i mean how dumb can u get????? u try to hide away but it's kinda pointless coz like i have mentioned before S'pore is uber small so deal with it....what u took was nothing but what u showed me was that i am way better off w/o u.......hypocrisies have a limit and i think that u have passed all limits.... how do u live the way u do??????? Don u have a conscience??????????
anywayz........am not gonna spoil my mood and my post
we headed up to Jeanz.....it's like been so long since i've actually clubbed but that night was so uncalled for.....for once i was so un-glam and in BOAT QUAY.....
Jeanz was super packed.....but we had the VIP corner and had song dedications to us.....uber cool lah.... everyone was like asking where you go after a long time.....i was like busy with work and school and blah blah blah......i managed to dance for only one song :( while the guys were busy playing pool...then again i thanked god i need not go down to the crowded dance floor coz we had our own mini dance floor in the VIP corner....
after the club closed, DJ Sathiya and Sivec was joking and fooling around....i love the treatment... it was like so much better than just by being a regular....after that we went off to Billa... some rickety old club in Cuppage Centre....i didn't wanna go there but everyone was so insistent and did i mentioned i was dragged.....
the club was pretty lame and the drink tasted like some shitty cough mixture...met ashwin who was the old DJ for N9.....there was this chick who was wearing a white maternity dress, rainbow tights and cowboy boots and she was literally going wild for every song and was dancing with some sleazy old man.....it was hilarious....
Though the music was shitty and the place was smelly, i had the most fun there....the guys all started dancing and it was so funny.......they were freaking out and i just could not stop laughing.... we left the club just as sudden as we arrived....
had pratas at the place opposite Cuppage Plaza...
everyone had finished eating and i was the only one trying to finish my prata....i felt so embarassed... reached home at 6am....then went off to do some school errands....had an assignment due today so needed to do some research in the school library....
went back home to catch some on some zzzzzzzzz........yu ling called and we were supposed to dress up and go out for our girly night out....we went to rupee room that night and we didn't enjoy ourselves.....left the club early and went to cine leisure....went to watch the bucket list.....the movie was at 4 so we had some dim sums at the cafe there......
the movie was so nice.....it reminded me so much of ling and myself... ling is Morgan Freeman and i am Jack Nicholson..... we both decided to do the bucket list for ourselves..... i think that this movie is a must watch by one and all....
Sunday was a day of R & R and finishing my assignment....
i am in my last term now....
gonna graduate soon...
gonna take my license soon...
things are happening so quickly..... the months are just whizzing by..... puppies have been re-homed except for Romeo....
am thinking of having him and Chinu around.....
Well to sum up my weekend and the guys i was out with,
Kumar ----> uber nice guy who is persuasive
Subash ----> despite the pain, he still danced and tolerated my nonsense
Anand ----> Congrats on your new job
Xaviour ---> uncle and auntie magnet...... muhahahahahahahahahahaha
Ling ----> super chio man.....

till my next post......

ciao

2D1N Batam Mother’s Day package on 10 – 11 May 2008:

2008-03-25T08:56:00.000+08:00

Hey hey.......

it's been a long time since i have wrote.....

well, basically, i have removed 2 of my wisdom tooth so was too much in pain to blog.....

i am still unwell....

but i gotta work so am now at work trying to clear off all outstanding work.....

haiz.....

my computer at home is spoilt so can really use it either....

gotta wait for the new part to come which would take about a week.....

meds are making me feel sleepy....

plus the puppies are driving me wild.......

the constant screaming to be let out of the cage......

*we cage them so that we can clean up the mess they create*

will write other fiction story soon

i promise....

too many things are going on at the moment.....

i swear 24hrs is just not enough......

gotta go

hopefully am able to leave work early today.......

ps: got some new offers for batam and all the mommies out there.....

do let me know if you have some queries....

ciao.....

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02 ways immigration express clearance
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The Package is excluding of:

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absence

2008-03-11T06:42:00.000+08:00

notice how my titles has got nothing to do with my post........

well a big hello to all who have missed me.....

*as though i have a readership of 15464543*

anywayz moving along.......got loads of stuff happening in my life at the same time......my puppies are getting bigger and they have progressed from dragging their bodies around to hopping.....i swear they think they are bloody frogs......anything and everything gets them going......i am particularly attached to the male one....he's like the quietest one of them all.....wish i could keep him..... anywayz, the puppies are at my mom's place and i have go there after work and then go back to woodlands..... it's pretty tiring and SUPER EXPENSIVE (cabs; cabs;cabs)...... have started to neglect myself.......been a long time since i've gone for my beauty regime.......

my tour guide is coming to an end *yayz* but got the MCQ questions to do and the final assessment..... after which i gotta wait for about 1 month then i've got to go and register myself in STB for the final......

i think i would take at least till the end of the year before i could get my badge and start my job as a tour guide....... *haiz*

on the bright side.........my BA is finishing soon double *yayzzzzzz*...... might go backpacking....... not sure where though......the list is long but moolah..... that;s another question......

i so need to go shoe shopping......my CKs' are reaching their expiration date........

been so tired...... juggling 2 courses and work........not in the mood to write today........

ciao

mixes emotions

2008-02-26T11:29:00.000+08:00

As I sit and type this entry, I feel lots of emotions going through me………

YES PEOPLE THIS IS FINALLY ABOUT ME…………

There have been many things in life that has changed my perspective………

Many have also asked me whether I have any regrets???

Well……………

I NEVER HAD REGRETS AND WILL NEVER HAVE THEM…………

I guess all this lessons in life has taught me who are true to me and who are there just for the thrill of it……….

Sometimes, I curse myself for being gullible and trusting people way too much………

Yet again, if I were to eye someone with caution, I would feel so bogus………

Loving ain’t easy, someone once said……….

I tend to agree………

It’s too taxing………

But to have not loved at all……….

I don’t know…………

It’s just like a sad love song…..

And its driving me nuts…….

Other times, it’s as though some heavy metal band’s having a concert in my head…….

Well, then again, I live a wonderful life…………

Stressed out but wonderful…………

Right now, I’m just so frustrated with some arses……..

Hate people who sing different tunes to suit their own selfish motives……….

They pretend to be fricking nice in your face………

They pretend to be your best friends………

UNTIL…………

They get what they want

Then WHAM BAM

THANK YOU MAM

F*cking frustrating

You know what…..

You can diss me for all I care……

But the fact still remains…….

You are nothing but a child,

Scratch that out

You’re a fucking whiny child who just can’t shut the fuck up

Ciao

UPDATE :

just realized that all I have wrote is just random ramblings...............

Don't know what came into me..........

Weird-ness

Bliss

2008-02-22T05:42:00.000+08:00

She thought he was the one…….
She gave her all…..
They had a good time together…..
She used to wait for him to finish work and they would head home together….
She stayed at his place most of the time……
Life was perfect……
Whipping up dishes wee hours of the morning to feed him, watching him sleep, making sure he was always well fed…..
She was in love….
She thought she was in bliss……
Though he had never said anything to her, she could feel his reciprocating…..
Until…………

GIRL : “Where have you been? Why are you ignoring my calls?”

BOY : “I think we are getting too close for my comfort. I think you are a great girl but I’m just not ready to be in a relationship just yet.”

GIRL : “Are you doing this to me because of the silly argument we had? Ok, I’m sorry. You were right. Happy?”

BOY : “Babe, don’t make this hard. I gotta go. See ya around.”

Toot………….toot…………toot……..

She stares at the phone………..
She places the phone on the coffee table and went on with her daily duties……….
That night, she sat down and watched the phone on the table………
She tried to call him but he ignored his calls………
SMSs’ were dealt with the same fate…….
This ordeal went on for 2 weeks….
She finally broke down 1 month later…….
She cried her eyes out and after that; she vowed she would not allow any man take advantage of her……

But alas, fate dealt her with another cruel blow…….

She started vomiting 1 month later…….
The doctor congratulated her on her pregnancy but all she could feel was dread……..

She knew the child was his but how was she gonna tell him that?

GIRL : “Hi!!! Are you busy?”

BOY : “Hey babe!!!!!!!! How have you been? Nah, am not busy…. Just hanging out with a group of friends.”

GIRL : “I’m pregnant…. The baby is ours. I really don’t know what to do. I’m so confused. Can we meet?”

BOY : “WHAT PREGNANT?????????? Come on babe, stop joking. You told me it was safe. Anyway it’s been a month since we met; how do you know its mine?”

GIRL : “It’s yours because unlike you, I’ve spent the last 1 month thinking of you and no one else. How can you ask me this question? After all that I have done for you and this is what you have to say to me?”

BOY : “I don’t care what you do. To me, we were just 2 people in lust and nothing else. Anyway I gotta go…. Do me a favor and don’t call me again.”

She felt as though she had her heart ripped out of her body……..
What was she to do?
She went for an abortion the following week……
She killed herself as well as memories of him………

1 year later…………

Girl finally plucks the courage and goes on a blind date her friends had arranged for her...
Surprisingly, she had a good time…….
As the hours became days, days become months, she finally decides to accept him as a “BOYFRIEND”
They were happy…..
She was yet again in a state of bliss, or so she thought……

One day he calls her and asks her to meet him at the park near his place……
She got frantic and started to have negative thoughts………
She felt history repeating itself……………

GIRL : “Hello……… How was your day?”

BF : “It has been hectic but good. How about you?”

GIRL : “So far so good. Tell me, why did you call me her?”

BF : “Well, it’s been a year since we got together and there has been something on my mind that’s been bugging me. Can I ask you something?”

GIRL : “Of course you can.”

BF : “When I first met you, I liked you but found you cynical. I guess you must have been pretty bruised up in life.”

GIRL : “Well…….”

BF : “Don’t worry, you can tell me everything.”

She told him whatever happened before she met him.

BF : “Oh I see. I’m sorry for all that happened to you. I really don’t know what to say. Have you eaten? Why don’t we go we go dinner? I know of this new restaurant that had just opened.”

GIRL : “It’s ok……. I think I shall head home…… am pretty tired.”

BF : “Ok then. You take care. Will call you later. Bye!!!!!”

GIRL : “Bye……..”

She went back home confused………
She thought all of going great and now he might back away…….
She started to reproach herself………..
He never called her……….

2 weeks later………..

She got an internet sms asking her to come to ABC restaurant at 6.30pm………
She was shocked because whoever sent that sms seemed to know that was her favorite restaurant……..
She contemplated whether to go or not but curiosity got the better of her……..

6.30pm

She arrived at the restaurant and found it empty………
A waiter asked her to have a seat and enquired whether she would like her wine to be served……..
She asked who had ordered the wine but the waiter refused to tell her anything……
Two hours later, as she stood up to leave, she heard someone calling her name…….
She turned and saw him……
He was carrying a bouquet of white lilies…….

GIRL : “Were you the one who messaged me?”

BF : “Yup…. It was me. Were you shocked?”

GIRL : “Yea, very shocked. Why did you call me for?”

BF : “Well, I’ve thinking about you and me. After what you told me, I was shocked but confused. I needed some time to think…..”

GIRL : “Well, if you called me here to break up, then I think you are wasting your time. I understood it that day itself.”

BF : “NO…… You are mistaken.”

BF : “I’ve got 101 reasons not to be with you and only 1 reason to be with you. I realized that the 1 reason I have to be with you is far more superior to all the reasons to be without you.”

GIRL : “And that one reason is?”

BF : “I love you. That reason justifies everything else. Marry me!!!!!!!!!!!!”

She saw the ring. It was a simple band but she could feel the love.

GIRL : “Yes, I will marry you.”

Yes, she told herself…….

I AM NOW IN BLISS

2008-02-18T17:25:00.005+08:00

random - ness

She sits by the phone in anticipation.........
silently she wills it to ring.........
it’s been 12 hours since he last called......
where is he?
Why hasn't he called?
its not like him to not call me......
thoughts are racing in her mind....
hope nothing bad has happened to him.....
I just want him to be fine...
the silence becomes deafening.....
She is screaming inside but displays a cool composure......
the phone rings piercing through the silence...
Girl: Hello???
Voice: Hello, I'm calling from the police station. Can I know who's looking for Ruben?
Girl: I'm his fiancée......been trying to reach him.....can I know where he is?
Voice: Well............ I'm sorry to inform you that Ruben has met with an accident and is no longer around...... (she drops the phone)
Voice: hello......hello..........
she silently weeps.....
Her body shuddering from the silent sobs........
She looks up and screams his name........
Random thoughts run through her mind.....
"Why????????????????
Why??????????????"
"there are so many things left unsaid; so many things to do"
"we have never meant harm to anyone then why must my life be in shambles????????????????"
she passes out........
She finds herself in a breezy, hazy pier.......
she looks around and she finds him.....
He looks good and is smiling at her......
he beckons her to come.....
She runs towards him......
however she seems to be getting no where near him.....
she stops running and looks at him......
there were so many questions she wanted to ask him......
but the look in his eyes said it all.....
"I know you are in a peaceful place and I know that you wanted to tell me that"
"don't worry, I will be the way you wanted me to be and will not allow myself to go back to the way I was"
he didn't say anything.....
just smiled and he started to fade away......
she wakes up and starts making the arrangements for his funeral.......
she was calm through the whole process....
everyone was shocked......
that night after his cremations, he came to her......
this time he hugged her and told her that he was proud of her....
he wanted her to take care of herself as well his mom....
he also told her that he would return....
she kept on asking him “how?” and “when?” but he only smiled.........

1 month later, she found out that she was pregnant.........

It's been 2 years.....
She is now a proud mother of an active toddler.......
every time she looks at she sees him......
the mischievous twinkle in his eyes.......
though he is far away, she feels his presence......
every night, when she puts him to sleep, she could feel HIM around.....
She smiles to herself.......
She knows.......

Ranjit

2008-02-15T14:14:00.004+08:00

I was away for a business trip over the CNY holidays………
On Sunday, Siva called me and informed that Ranjit was no longer around.........
I could not believe it………
Ranjit was like the older brother I never had………
His Vadivelu's likeness, his tendency to play Saloma Salo, his ability to make everyone laugh......
I first met Ranjit thru Siva in N9....
He was a resident DJ there......
Initially, Ranjit was pretty formal with me but as time went by we got closer………
He would bring his gf out with us and we would have a great time together…………
As responsibilities as well as work load grew, we started to meet less often but were always in touch……………
His sarcasm was somehow refreshing in a weird way………
On the day he left us, he was supposed to meet Siva but that was not to be……
He was working 2 - 3 jobs so that he was able to marry his sweetheart of 7 years this year…………
Siva and I were worried about him and his lack of sleep but he assured us that he was fine…….
His loss has made me realize the fragility of life and how lightly we take life……
My heart goes out to his mom – he was her ray of light, her only son, and yet it was extinguished before her……
I was unable to attend the funeral because I had sustained an injury on my right leg, which I realized much later was a hairline fracture, but from what I heard, his father was ONE heartless man……
*am not gonna go into details – for those who were there and saw whateva went on should know*
my heart goes out to Revathi – he used to talk to me about her, her past and how hard he tried to make her be the person she is today………
I, personally was neva close to her but any case I always emphasized to Ranjit and her that we could always hang out together……
In fact, he always wanted us girls to be close……
Alas, he was never meant to be………
I really hope that she would be strong and move on to be the person he wanted her to be………
Her dream or rather, their dream was that she would have her own beauty shop eventually……
I hope that at this point of time, her vulnerability would not be taken advantage of in any way…………

I now thank God for everyday I live………
No matter how tough life may be, how many fights we go through with our loved ones, we should always thank God for being able to live another day………
I stop asking myself why I am alive ‘coz I now know I’ve put on this earth for a reason………
Ranjit, no matter where you are, I won’t let you down………
I know what I promised you and believe me, I will do it………
Somehow as I sit and type this, I feel you looking over my shoulder………
You will be missed my dear friend………

sick

2008-02-04T16:55:00.001+08:00

Head hurts
Nose leaking
Throat hurting
Head pounding

I THINK I AM GOING TO BE SICK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I hate being sick
I guess taking care of the puppies n sleeping on the sofa has taken toil on me and my back......
I got a reassessment tonight and nothing seems to go in my head
Damn!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hope I can remember everything.....................
Haiz................

Random thoughts:-

* isn't irritating when one doesn't keep to their words
* when u say u give me space; MEAN IT; don't come down on me
* people who say they will call but never do <----- gets me thinking.... why waste your breath saying words u don't mean * people who ignore your calls <-------- like hello!!!!!!!!! I’m not dumb; u can't keep avoiding me for long people who take u for a ride * Why can't people just be nice??????????? Don’t they know about Karma????????? What goes around comes around......

GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Super pissed at loads of people

Going off now

Wish me luck!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ciao

exciting happenings

2008-01-30T14:10:00.001+08:00

it's wednesday......

i m sleepy......

cud not sleep the whole nite.....

was too busy taking care of puppies.....

my doggies gave birth y'day morning......

3 female & 1 male......

so exciting.....

was there helping her push the babies out......

she was in a lot of pain......

glad to say that the babies are healthy and fine......

now am just wondering how am i gonna get the pups settled in good homes......

we r gonna take the 1 male pup so we need good homes for the rest of the puppies....

if anyone knows anyone who loves doggies and would want to buy one, pls feel free to add me on msn themepackages@hotmail.com

we are looking at a price of $600.00 per pup....

will post of the pix soon.....

cheers

changes

2008-01-21T10:02:00.001+08:00

its MONDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

pretty dull day.......

its the start of the week......

time is going pretty slow....

got an assignment due this weekend and yet again i have no idea what I'm supposed to do....

was reading Gilbert's blog.....

for an IT guy, he's got loads of creativity.....

he had given me advice on my blog.....

for starters, am trying not to use sms language....

i guess it's i just got used to the fact that i need not type the 'long - form' of the words

well, other than that i think i m going to start writing ficton.....

i think this will give my over - imaginative mind a playground.....

i don't know about others but i have a super wild imagination.....

when i look down from a high rise, i imagine myself being splattered to the ground brain bits scattered everywhere.....

i can also visualize the position of my body and limbs....

trust me it's not a pretty sight......

after much deliberation, i have decided to put my imagination to good use......

i m now going to write short stories......

i cant write everyday due to school and work commitments

but i hereby solemnly promise to write at least 3 short stories per week.....

got to go....

ciaoz